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It doesn’t matter

Published on February 23, 2024 by wordhuesLeave a comment

How complicated life seems during teenage. It is the time when we start to understand the importance of “society acceptance”.

We leave the phase of enjoy everyday with no are of the world attitude to “What will people think” attitude.

We fight everyday with ourselves to be the perfect version we can be. Just so we could be liked. We wanted people to be jealous of the perfection in our life.

I did things that I hated just cause it was what most people did. I tried so hard to fall into the required specification to be part of the “cool” gang. And when I could not make it, I denigrated myself . “You are not trying hard enough”, “You are a loser”, “You should rather just kill yourself that be a waste on this earth” – these thoughts occupied a permanent space in my head.

But now in retrospect it all feels so small. All the issues I faced, if I had the maturity I had today I think I would have got through them unscathed.

The one thing I want to tell my old self is “It doesn’t matter”. The people you think matter leave your life, the standards you had to meet changed, the measure of success is different. All I had to do was get through it forging my own path cause not matter what, to others you are doing everything wrong.

Just brush them off your shoulder, hold your head high and keep on walking.

What advice would you give to your teenage self?

Shallow Talks & Shopping

Published on February 22, 2024February 22, 2024 by wordhuesLeave a comment

I am not sure yet if I like conversations or hate them. I think I am an introvert but I can be an extrovert under certain circumstances so I guess I could assume I am a ambivert of some sort.

But the one thing that always bores me is shallow conversations. I did not understand how people can talk on and on about owning a certain items and explaining in minute detail their process of obtaining the item. I have had some people talk about the nail art they got done for over an hour. I mean I get that someone who enjoys such talk would really appreciate it.

When I try to categorize what topics fall under “shallow” I realized that the list I come up with is specific to me. I may be about things that I do not understand completely which in turn bores me out.

Shopping also bores me. Especially when I have to do it for myself. I prefer my shopping escapades not to last more than 1-2 hours. After that I just give up and say next time and leave the store.

I feel the more options I see the more I get confused. I don’t like being confused. I predetermine what I need from a store. And focus on buying just that. If I still have any energy left I look to buy something else.

So to summarize, I think I get bored when conversations go too long and shopping spree causes pain to my feet! 🙂

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What bores you?

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Coffee

Published on February 21, 2024 by wordhuesLeave a comment

The first sip of the hot beverage was all it took for me to realize that good things sometimes can be the most simplest form.

I have never been one for drinking hot beverages. I would choose water any day over coffee.

We had a chapter on coffee for English I would probably think that was what motivated me to try it. I had black coffee made with Nescafe Instant Coffee and boy was it eye opening! The bitter taste of coffee actually appealed to me. I loved the smell which literally transported me to a place of blissful peace. I close my eyes and take in the wonderful fragrance that emits for that cup of coffee. I feel my taste buds reacting to the flavor of the coffee.

Ever since then I have been a true coffee drinker. Mind you, I am not a coffee addict. I can go with out drinking coffee for days in a row. But if ever I need a hot drink, it will be coffee! Thank you to God for giving man the intelligence to brew this delicious drink!

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What is your favorite drink?

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My Inner Circle

Published on February 20, 2024 by wordhuesLeave a comment

I know the first response that most people would say is family. And under circumstances where my mind is in the right space I would say the same thing. Being with family always makes special memories.

To be truthful, my favorite people when I am most vulnerable is my inner circle of friends. In front of them I can be my broken self without having to worry that they will break down seeing me that way. They always support me to get through my worst feelings. Since we are of the same age it makes it easier to express the crazy thoughts I have without being judged. And that’s why, they are my favorite people after my blood. They are the bonds that have been forged with no expectations no responsibilities. I am eternally thankful for their presence in my life.

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Who are your favorite people to be around?

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My First Stilettos

Published on February 19, 2024 by wordhues4 Comments

I have never been a person who spent time on dressing up. First, cause I did not understand much about fashion and secondly, I am overly conscious about that people would say about me when I would dress up.

I have always shunned away from the spotlight. I never knew (to some extent still don’t) how to take a compliment. But one fine day, when I was informed that I would be getting an award at a firm level I wanted to accept the spotlight.

That time I went shopping and got myself a new dress for the award ceremony and with that for the first time ever I bought myself a pair of black stilettoes. It was a 4 inch heel with small black crystals on it. They may not have been fancy in the eyes of others but I loved them. Those were the pair of shoes that took me to the stage to collect my award. For the first time in my life I loved being in the spotlight. The confidence those pair of shoes gave were beyond anything I could imagine. I felt pretty that night no matter what people said.

I may not have met the world beauty standards but that day I learnt to appreciate myself even if it was just for that one day.

Side Note: I understand why heels are not everyone’s first choice. The next day, my legs were killing me but the pain was totally worth it

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Tell us about your favorite pair of shoes, and where they’ve taken you.

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Gifts out of Love

Published on February 18, 2024February 19, 2024 by wordhues6 Comments

In one of the earlier prompts I have mentioned that the best gift that one could give me was their time. But moving on to a much tangible level, I think the best gifts I have received were those that were given out of love.

My sister has got me so many things over the years. She never said yours and mine. I got to get everything she owned. But I think the best thing she has given me was helping me understand the plot of Nancy Drew, Secret Seven, Sherlock Holmes, Harry Potter and so many other books. Basically, she introduced me to the world of magic in books. My sister is my sounding board, I can ask her all the weird questions my mind can come up with but she will find me an answer. When I was smaller and couldn’t read all that well she used to read the books and then explain the story in vivid details that I could just picture the whole story in my mind.

One of my closest friend got me a coral jewelry set. At that age I was really fascinated by fashion jewelry and though we were not allowed to wear any to school. She remembered. From the many conversation that we have over our lunch boxes. She took the time to pick out something I would like and gift it to me. That was the first time that someone had gifted me something on my birthday. But she gave me something even more precious, a greeting card that she made on her own with the pictures of our group of friends. It’s been a decade since she gave it to me but I still have it with me, taking it along every time I move houses. And the end of the day she gave me her time.

Another friend of mine, who is more closer to family than friend did something very unexpected. She dragged me to the shop to but me a pair of good shoes. And mind you they were not good shoes per “my standards”, it had to be good shoes according to her standards. She said she wanted me to get those shoes cause she saw me in pain. She said it is one less pain that I had to bear.

So to summarize, anything tangible or intangible, given out of love, is the best gifts I have received.

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Share one of the best gifts you’ve ever received.

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Break it out!

Published on February 17, 2024 by wordhues2 Comments

I am not really good with money. Either I spend too much or spend too little.

When I got my first job the pay wasn’t all that great. So, for two year I saved nearly 80% of my salary. Choosing to limit my spending on things for myself. I took only what I need to meet my monthly expenses. I never went out to eat or took trips or for that matter buy things that I really wanted. Every six month from the amount I saved from my expenses I used to splurge on something nice.

My second job really changed things for me. I had a better pay and I also ended up with friends who loved to splurge. I had zero savings and spent a lot on things that I only dreamt of buying at one point.

But experience makes all the difference. I realized that I only spent on things that were part of the short term things that I wanted. A new dress, new stationary, new headphones…. but now I have learnt to stop with the impulse buying.

These are the things that I do to effectively use my pay:

a. Savings/ Investment – I block out a portion of my salary either create deposits or invest in the markets. These are usually auto payments and are charged within the first week of my salary credit. By doing so, I feel I limit myself on the unnecessary expenditure.

b. Utilities – I then segregate amounts that will be part of my monthly expenses such as utilities, groceries, subscriptions, credit bills, etc. These are the expenses that are mostly fixed which cannot be avoided at any cost.

c. Savings for Future Fees – Since I am also still studying I need to allocate a portion of my income so that on the due date of payment I have enough to cover the cost of my fees.

d. Spending – I allocate a certain amount each month for spending on non-essential items. It could be for eating out or buying a new dress. However, once this allocation is over I am done. No more spending in the month.

e. Round up amount – In the end of the month if I do have some savings either divert it towards my course fees or the the investment.

I may be doing something right and most of it wrong but for now I am sticking with this till I figure out a better method. I am still learning.. I see a lot of videos on how to best manage my finances and am trying to change certain aspects of my methods.

Given, that I am a student of finance it does require me to get my own accounts in order before helping others with their finances. So here’s to trying!

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Write about your approach to budgeting.

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Not Enough

Published on February 16, 2024 by wordhuesLeave a comment

Patriotism… The word in itself invokes feelings to the land to which you were born.

Am I patriotic? Now that for that I need a minute to consider it. Do I love my country? Of course yes! Without a doubt. I have lived abroad so I know what it means to come home. It mostly noticed that the ones that do not get to live in their home country are the ones that appreciate it.
Given that, I know my country has it’s flaws it is still will be my home and I love my home.

When I think of true patriotism I think it stems from working for your country. I have a brother in the military and when he speaks about our country I see his eyes sparkle. I see true pride in his eyes and I don’t think the country is ever on the back burner in his mind. For him country and it’s people are first. To him, the whole nation is his family. He would give up everything if it meant the country could get better.

In comparison, I think I am a passive patriot. I have feelings of pride at the Olympics and International sports events or when the anthem is played. However, that is the limit to which I understand the patriotism feeling. But maybe someday, I will do something that will bring pride to my nation.

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Are you patriotic? What does being patriotic mean to you?

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Maybe or Maybe not?

Published on February 15, 2024 by wordhuesLeave a comment

Unintentional? Considering I am quite well verse with all the rules and regulations of the country I doubt I would even know that I have broken the law.

But intentionally, I have done my fair share of rule breaking. I have once jumped a traffic signal when the light had just turned red. I just didn’t want to wait for the signal to turn green again. Done once, but regretted it ever since then.

Jay walking, I do that on a regular basis. Not really something to be proud about but almost all the time my laziness just kicks in.

Come to think of it, I may have broken many other laws as well but “Ignorance” is sometimes bliss. What I don’t know will not bear on my conscious.

The only law or rather rule I live by is don’t do to others what you do not want happening to you. To those that deserve it, return with interest but not malice.

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Have you ever unintentionally broken the law?

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Unscripted

Published on February 14, 2024 by wordhuesLeave a comment

My whole life has been on the principle of “Let’s wing it!”. Ironically, I have attended so many sessions that were around planning and organizing to achieve future goals. However, I still have not learnt the art of setting goals and achieving them.

If there was a biography, the whole book would talk about how without any sort of planning and fore thought I have taken up the most biggest challenges of my life.

Despite all odds, I have attained what had I set out to. Meticulous planning, Dream boards, Goal setting may work for others but for me, “unplanned” works best.

I may not have anything written down and I may ended up taking longer than required, but I get there. Cheers to the ones that have no script to follow!

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If there was a biography about you, what would the title be?

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