I am just glad that I have so many things but I does make it difficult to answer a question like this.
I think practically, I would say Water, Food and Clothes. The necessities in life.
If I were to be shallow, I would say Money, Phone and A Nice House. The things you need to be “Set for life”.
If I were philosophical, I would say Family, Friends and A Good home. The things that can heal my heart.
But I were to think of objects in particular, it would be My Journal, A pen and A pencil. These things are the ones that allow me to write and draw. And when I am doing those things I am at my happiest.
I am the kind of person who generally does not work hard for something. But sometimes I make that extra effort to get something I really want. I would plan and replan till it was just right. Then I would stay focused and strive hard but despite everything I failed.
Initially, I used to think that was the end and just give up. When I would see others achieve what I could not I would make myself smaller. I kept thinking that I could not do it cause I was not good enough.
However, one day I decided to fight after may failure. And I realized the second time around I was easily able to navigate the mistakes and though it took me a couple of times to actually win, I eventually did.
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I realized that with every attempt I got better and faster. That was the turning point for me. I learnt to fight from then on. No matter how long it takes I will keep trying.
Like Edison said — “I have not failed, but found a 1000 ways how not to make one.”
What experiences in life helped you grow the most?
I think that word brings a sort of relief to people. That one word invokes in us the feeling that some things are just meant to be, whether it be good or bad.
It’s easy to accept things as they come but fighting for something, it gives us a purpose. When we constantly fight against “destiny” it feels exhausting and there are times we feel that we just need to give up.
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I believe in making my own destiny. The world puts us in situations that sometimes compels us to do things that we never wanted to do. I could just give up and blame it on fate. But I have noticed that every time I have pushed back on this so called fate my life has changed. For that change to happen, I do go through a lot of pain but when I finally do succeed it was totally worth the fight.
I believe in fate but in the fate that I have built and not the one that people say is written in the stars for me.
Do I love my “job”? It would depend on the day you ask me. I think everyone has those days where the stress of the job does not seem worth the pay of it.
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When I think about it I love the “work” I do. I chose my career path and am excited about learning new things. However, I have a need to give 100% to anything I do and when I can’t do that, I tend to get upset. My parents have instilled in me to be sincere to the job that pays the bill and I always try I do my best. The job is not always about the “work” though, it includes navigating through people’s expectations, office politics and sometimes unfair situations. Most days you handle it but some days it just gets you and then the job feels like a burden.
For me, my job keeps me occupied and there is only so many days I can “relax”. As a added advantage if I am working I not worrying and I welcome that break. But, I want to be so much more than just my job. I want to do things which does not need me to be perfect it just requires me to make progress.
I have realized to enjoy my job, I need to find the balance of perfect at my job and learning to take things lighter when doing art or writing. I have made small efforts to balance out my life this year and it has made a difference. Little by little I will reach where I intend to.
I still live in my own home. But for sometime I lived on my own. That apartment was truly “my” home.
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Being the youngest in my family, I was never alone. Neither have I had any consequences for my decisions. My family protected me and reprimanded me in different instances. Though I had the freedom to make most of my choices I always limited my choices within my family’s expectations.
However, the first time I lived alone, though I was skeptical, the experience turned out to be a refreshing experience. For the first time in my life, I was the one making all the decisions and was the one bearing all the consequences as well.
I had an art nook where all of my stationary supplies and art supplies were arranged. All my collections were out in the open and for me just seeing them makes me happy. I bought my own groceries, cooked my own food, cleaned my home, decorated it for Christmas and Easter. I think more than any I miss being myself without any restraints.
It may have been a phase of my life that I have said goodbye to for now. However, I am hoping to get back to that phase again sooner rather than later.
Daily writing prompt
Describe a phase in life that was difficult to say goodbye to.
Today. It feels difficult to hold on to hope. My anxiety is creeping in, I feel that my lungs have no air. I cannot breathe. “I am drowning on dry ground”– It did not make sense to me earlier but that is exactly how I feel. I am sitting at my desk trying to work but I can’t. I put on videos to distract my mind but it is not helping. I want to cry and want to break down and curl up into a ball.
Today I am not okay. The compartments in my mind are shaking a little. Reality is hitting me a little too hard today. The problems that I just accept as part of life, today, it feels like they could kill me. I feel that I cannot go on. I know it is just one of those days. A day in which even the smallest of thing feels like a boulder on my chest. I know I will get through this day but today it feels like I won’t.
My mind is going in different directions, my heart is racing and my vision feels blurry. I guess I just need a good bout of sleep. Maybe it’s just that I am tired physically and mentally today. As Dory says “Just keep swimming”, I will overcome this day as well. And tomorrow, I will have the energy to bear the weight of my mind again.
Time to disconnect a little and enter into the world of imagination. Self prescription of drawing has been advised. While drawing the picture on the paper, it may just give me enough time to stop thinking for a while. Just enough time to get through the overwhelming feeling of today.
A deeply thought provoking question. I did go through other’s responses and saw that most of them did not want to be anyone else. Well, I have a weird response to this.
I want to be the person that I dislike. I try most of the time to empathize with the person I interact with. But, I am no sort of saint. I do have people that I strongly dislike and no matter how hard I try I just cannot understand why are they being mean to me.
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I know that there are people who are “pure evil” and I certainly would not be able to handle being them. But I want to know why the people I dislike have developed that certain trait which irks me. Maybe if I understand them better I can learn to be less effected by them. By doing so, I feel I can finally let go of the all the hurt and pain and then start to heal.
So, as you can see a purely selfish motive. But what are your thoughts? Am I being naive?
Daily writing prompt
If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be, and why?
I love crafting! I love doing anything to do with making things look prettier. But DIY usually comes to my aid when I realize that the thing i actually want to buy is too costly.
As a child I did receive an allowance to use in case of emergencies. However, since my parents gave me everything I needed I never really spent anything from it. Instead, I used to find a way to make the things I wanted. For music class we needed a musical instrument but since those come very pricey I chose to use some beads, two empty jelly cups and an old pencil and voila! a make shift maracas… The music teacher took kindly to my choice, appreciated my efforts and allowed me to continue using that for the term.
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As the years progressed, I took up many small DIYs — Christmas ornaments, kitchen organizers, waste paper bins, wind chimes, sofa covers, pillow covers, curtains, clothes for my dolls, mini doll house.. I loved doing it!
Most of my ambitious projects have been completed with help from my father. Like the a shoe rack we made out of wooden pieces, the head piece to the bed, — mostly things that require using power tools. I still have not learnt how to use those things.
I am thankful to the era of YouTube and to the people who make videos with beautiful DIY ideas. Currently, I have bought all the supplies to make a stationary organizer. Still have not figured exactly how it am going to make it and when I am actually going to get it started. But fingers crossed, I will be done with it soon and move on to the next exciting project.
Daily writing prompt
Describe the most ambitious DIY project you’ve ever taken on.
I need to think about this now. A word that I just feel should not be part of the general vocabulary.
I really wish I could come up with a word. The truth is that I never actually thought about it. I have heard others saying certain words irritate them and never gave it a second thought.
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Given that now that I am actually posed with the question I am straining my brain to think of any memory where I have hated a word. I may hate the way certain people pronounce words but outright hating the word. I really don’t think so.
But I still have some years left for me to develop a hatred for a word. I probably will post an update to this entry if I do..
If you could permanently ban a word from general usage, which one would it be? Why?
People say you never tell people about your goals till you achieve them.
There may be people who genuinely wish you well and want you to achieve success in life. But with those there come people who demotivate you, who may be a little bit jealous.
Every step that I wanna take I want to make my life better. I want to complete my education, have a good career, maybe one day own my own house.
However, the biggest challenge in my life right now that I am hoping to conquer in the next six months is to overcome my procrastinating behavior.
I want to be able to wake up everyday with certain objective in my mind and at the end of the day go sleep with the joy that I achieved all of them. Once I can put my laziness behind me, I think the other goals will just fall into place.
Fingers crossed to a year of achievement!
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What is the biggest challenge you will face in the next six months?
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