Author: wordhues

Good news does not come very often in my life. More like the attitude to appreciate something good does not come very often to me. I think the first thing I would do is give thanks.

Most of the good things that I have received is not because I deserve it but it has been due to Jesus’s abundant grace and mercy. I may not think that I have a lot to be happy about but I know that I have received more than most.

Every time I speak to him it has always increased my joy. It just makes everything a whole lot more meaningful. I hope that I never forget that all good things I have come through Him. And that I remember to keep a space for Him in my moment of Joy.

People need people. That was told to me every time I said I didn’t want to attend a ceremony or function. It’s not that I don’t like people, I don’t like the opinions that people have about my life.

We are all different people with our own thoughts, opinions, experiences and expectations. It think it would be impossible to find someone with the same ideology in every aspect of life. Given that there are people who learn to love each others differences and are happy.

At any stage of my life, the one statement that I have constantly heard was “What will people think?”. I was never an extremely bright student neither was I a great athlete. There were people always commenting on the way I was. There was some invisible standards that were set and I never could match up to them. When I think I have made it the standards change again.

The society I live in has degraded me on the way I look because I do not match the standards of “normal” beauty. They have pointed fingers at me calling me greedy or money minded when all I did was strive to be better. They have influenced so many life altering decisions in my family because my parents had to stay true to the society standards. Sometimes even forgetting their love for me. I hate parts of my life and I hate myself more for the fact that I did not have the courage to fight against it and just gave in.

This society is what has caused me to compartmentalize my emotions. I have given up on my happiness and in some cases my sanity to meet these standards and all I got for it was pain. I am not sure who made these standards cause I see that most all people are like me. They are crushed by society’s expectations. They are empty.

There are days I feel empty too. But, now I have learnt one thing, no matter what I can’t please anybody. All I can do is fight for a little bit of happiness for myself. I am not going to keep scratching at things that scar me. I am going to let it go. I am going to hold on to the few dreams that I have and work towards that. Let the society sneer and rebuke at me. I will still keep moving forward.

I maybe broken but I have not fallen apart. My scars are witness to the battles I survived. Cheers to the survival in the battles before and the ones yet to come.

Daily writing prompt

Do you need a break? From what?

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Today’s prompt is a tough one. Come to think of it, there have been so many inventions in the past couple of decades I don’t think I can think of one important thing.

Of the top of my mind, Camera phones. Who could have imagined a day when we don’t have to wait to get the photos from the studios. I love the fact that in a second we can capture a scene and then have it as a memory for a lifetime. I literally have archives of photos. I may not be in any of them but it serves like a time when I look at them it almost feels like I am seeing the scenes through my eyes again.

Oh MP3 players! I love listening to music so much. My parents had got me a portable CD player which I used till its dying breath. I think Mp3 players revolutionized the way we listened to music. we no longer had to carry around different CDs and could just change the tracks in the storage. And the number of songs you could save in one tiny device at that time was considered beyond imagination. Total introvert haven! Headphones In and I was in my own private land of peace.

I think “Google” also should be listed. I know that there were search engines before but Google completely changed the game for everyone else and made information so easily available. It was just beyond words.

All my inventions are around technology it probably is because I can’t think beyond these for now. Maybe after I have had some time to think about it I probably need to revisit this prompt once again.

Daily writing prompt

The most important invention in your lifetime is…

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Every single thing that has happened in my life has change the way I approach things.

In my opinion everyone is born with the hope, joy and positive energy. Well at least whenever I see a baby everything seems a whole lot happier. But time and circumstances change our perspective to life.

I loved anything shinny and bright. I was the kind that believed in unicorns and time travel. I loved watching silly rom-coms and movies that showed the power of good over evil. I genuinely believed that magic was present in the world, I believed butterflies were tiny fairies and that frogs could turn into princes.

Then, you grow up a little. People who you consider family hurt you, people you consider friends betray you and people you love destroy you. And every single time that one of this happens it takes away a little magic in your life.

Little by little all the light fades away and then you find yourself groping in the dark. Hoping and praying that you don’t disintegrate into pieces. Some of us stop right there and fade away into the monotony that the world or people set for us.

But sometimes, we learn to try again. We take that one last chance out of desperation and then the single ray of light floods back in. I am not bright and hopefully today like I was when I was a child. Today, I am cautiously hopefully and determined to make a way for myself.

“Two roads diverged in a wood, and I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.” – Robert Frost

My way is different and no one understands it completely. But even then I am happy enough for today.

Daily writing prompt

How do significant life events or the passage of time influence your perspective on life?

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First and foremost I do not have a proper to do list. I keep things thinking that I should make one before I start the day and ensure that I have met all my goals by the end. However, the list is only written in the books of my mind which disappears when the next thought comes to my mind.

Despite this, the one thing I know that I really need to do is to “clean the attic”. From my childhood I think I am so what of a hoarder. I can’t let go of sentimental things. Even if the sentiments is of others rather than mine. If i know something is special to someone in my family I keep it safe till they choose to throw it out themselves.

My attic has years of things that I have “kept safe”. I feel that now since I have grown up a little in my mind I have understood that only when you let go of some of the old can I make space for new.

I definitely do not mean that everything old needs to be thrown out. I love keep sakes to remind me of happy memories but the piles of old notes that I have stored away just in case I might need to refer back to them. Or the clothes that I purchased once upon a time with the hope that I will fit in to them is just not worth the space.

Sooner that later I am gonna have to get to it. I have a battle to conquer with masks, brooms and boxes to allocate to trash and thrift. I have not got to it yet. But I am going to one day :). Unless of course another relocation will force me to downsize on my clutter sooner than later.

Daily writing prompt

Something on your “to-do list” that never gets done.

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