Break the Mould

Women before me have already fought most of my battles for me. I live in a privileged time where I can make my own choices and not be severely persecuted for that.

The laws have come a long way than what one could hope but there is only so much that laws can do. The only way that things can change is when people minds change.

Child Marriage: There are age limits in most countries but despite that kids get married at quite a young age. People end up saying it has been done before it wasn’t wrong then what is different now.

Laws against Acid Attacker/ Rapist: I know that most laws believes there is always a possibility that the person can recover their conscious. But I feel that it is unfair that the survivor have to live their rest of their life with the trauma. But the perpetrator after serving their time gets to get back to their life. I feel the victim needs to be given the right to decide the punishment.

Restrictive Rights: This not just about woman but about any class of people. I feel that all humans are created the same. If they have not done a crime why should their rights be any different from the next person.

There are so many other things that I feel could be better. However, I know that there a million things that need to fall into place for it to actually move in the right direction. Let’s all hope that we as humans learn to make the world a better place. A time where humanity is what rules everything and good laws just become habits.

Daily writing prompt
If you had the power to change one law, what would it be and why?

Charming Chateau

Well dreams has no limits and I always dream large. I used to read a lot of Classic Novels and I loved the way the homes of the characters were picturized through the author’s words.

If I could get my dream house forgetting all about the cost and maintenance involved I would want a Chateau. The large rooms with assigned names half of which I have not yet heard of, the long hallways in which could put a football field to shame, beautiful windows that end up being larger than some doors, the multiple floors that almost make you feel like you live in a resort.

— Picture of Château de Chambord

But closer to home, I want an apartment with 2 bedrooms, a living room, an office space, a nice kitchen and pantry, a balcony (which would mean it cannot be on the ground floor) and a bathroom with a nice tub.

To tell the truth, when I think of my dream home it’s size doesn’t really matter. I want it to be a place where I can decorate and nest with my personality. Where the walls can be filled with photos from my memories and each and every item is my choice. That is my true dream home!

Daily writing prompt
Write about your dream home.

Prayer of Thanks

Good news does not come very often in my life. More like the attitude to appreciate something good does not come very often to me. I think the first thing I would do is give thanks.

Most of the good things that I have received is not because I deserve it but it has been due to Jesus’s abundant grace and mercy. I may not think that I have a lot to be happy about but I know that I have received more than most.

Every time I speak to him it has always increased my joy. It just makes everything a whole lot more meaningful. I hope that I never forget that all good things I have come through Him. And that I remember to keep a space for Him in my moment of Joy.

You get some great, amazingly fantastic news. What’s the first thing you do?

Recollections of the Past

When we are kids we always are busy. Always doing something or the other.

As a kid I loved collecting stamps and coins but with the relocating I lost some so I has to let it go. I loved writing down the lyrics to my favorite songs. I also made activity books by cutting up the crossword puzzles and comic strips from the newspaper. Oh and makeup! I think all kids at some put loved being a make up artist.

But there are some that I have continued doing or restarted recently. I still enjoying making small drawings once in a while or painting or some sort of art. The one consistent thing over the years has been writing and I am so glad I never let that go.

Daily writing prompt
Are there any activities or hobbies you’ve outgrown or lost interest in over time?

Sweet Tooth

I believe with all my heart that I like most kids loved all kinds of candy. As I grew up though I started to loose my interest of most kind of candies.

There are however a few of them that have continued to hold a place in my heart. Kit Kat is my forever favorite! I simply love the Hazelnut chocolate flavor. I know there are other chocolates with the same taste but those wafer covered chocolates will always be my first choice.

I also love the Heartbeat candies.. Especially the purple colored ones. I have not eaten them in a long time but I still have the memory of the taste and it is just amazing.

I am not sure it would be considered as a candy. But when talking about my favorite sweet food item, Loacker cube wafers cannot be excluded. I could eat a whole bag of it at one go. Even though now I don’t prefer having a lot of candies, I still I could binge eat them today.

All these are stuff I have been having since my childhood so I guess they are part of my core memories. I can just close my eyes and imagine their taste.

Daily writing prompt
What’s your favorite candy?

Society

People need people. That was told to me every time I said I didn’t want to attend a ceremony or function. It’s not that I don’t like people, I don’t like the opinions that people have about my life.

We are all different people with our own thoughts, opinions, experiences and expectations. It think it would be impossible to find someone with the same ideology in every aspect of life. Given that there are people who learn to love each others differences and are happy.

At any stage of my life, the one statement that I have constantly heard was “What will people think?”. I was never an extremely bright student neither was I a great athlete. There were people always commenting on the way I was. There was some invisible standards that were set and I never could match up to them. When I think I have made it the standards change again.

The society I live in has degraded me on the way I look because I do not match the standards of “normal” beauty. They have pointed fingers at me calling me greedy or money minded when all I did was strive to be better. They have influenced so many life altering decisions in my family because my parents had to stay true to the society standards. Sometimes even forgetting their love for me. I hate parts of my life and I hate myself more for the fact that I did not have the courage to fight against it and just gave in.

This society is what has caused me to compartmentalize my emotions. I have given up on my happiness and in some cases my sanity to meet these standards and all I got for it was pain. I am not sure who made these standards cause I see that most all people are like me. They are crushed by society’s expectations. They are empty.

There are days I feel empty too. But, now I have learnt one thing, no matter what I can’t please anybody. All I can do is fight for a little bit of happiness for myself. I am not going to keep scratching at things that scar me. I am going to let it go. I am going to hold on to the few dreams that I have and work towards that. Let the society sneer and rebuke at me. I will still keep moving forward.

I maybe broken but I have not fallen apart. My scars are witness to the battles I survived. Cheers to the survival in the battles before and the ones yet to come.

Daily writing prompt
Do you need a break? From what?

Technology Explosion

Today’s prompt is a tough one. Come to think of it, there have been so many inventions in the past couple of decades I don’t think I can think of one important thing.

Of the top of my mind, Camera phones. Who could have imagined a day when we don’t have to wait to get the photos from the studios. I love the fact that in a second we can capture a scene and then have it as a memory for a lifetime. I literally have archives of photos. I may not be in any of them but it serves like a time when I look at them it almost feels like I am seeing the scenes through my eyes again.

Oh MP3 players! I love listening to music so much. My parents had got me a portable CD player which I used till its dying breath. I think Mp3 players revolutionized the way we listened to music. we no longer had to carry around different CDs and could just change the tracks in the storage. And the number of songs you could save in one tiny device at that time was considered beyond imagination. Total introvert haven! Headphones In and I was in my own private land of peace.

I think “Google” also should be listed. I know that there were search engines before but Google completely changed the game for everyone else and made information so easily available. It was just beyond words.

All my inventions are around technology it probably is because I can’t think beyond these for now. Maybe after I have had some time to think about it I probably need to revisit this prompt once again.

Daily writing prompt
The most important invention in your lifetime is…

Just Me, Myself and I

My ideal day… Now that is something I always think about. Let’s start from the beginning.

Phase 1: Energize
Wake up at 6 am. I know that is early but I love the morning air. I want to go out for a walk at that time and I don’t want other people to be there. Just cause it would beat the purpose of relaxing. After the walk, I want a nice cup of warm hot chocolate. Then sit out on the balcony in a fuzzy blanket and just want the sun rising listening to some calming music.

Phase 2: Fueling
My ideal breakfast is a Toasted bread with sausage and bacon. It is my comfort meal. I love it! It makes the whole day just happier. After breakfast, maybe finish up some of the basic chores at home

Phase 3: Meditate
For the early part of the day I prefer to visit a museum or art gallery or even a nice park. Where there is no noise of the busy streets. I can just sit down and get lost in the castles of my mind.

Phase 4: Enjoy
I probably would skip lunch for a nice cup of Java. After that, a movie! But let’s get specific, I want to go for a movie in an empty theatre. The movie can be a an unpopular one I am okay with that. I just want to be able to look at my phone and laugh loud and sit in the best seat in the theatre without troubling anyone. Oh and theatre food! Cheese Nachos! I know popcorn is the go to but I just prefer nachos.

Phase 5: Unwind
After the movie, a cab ride back home and a soaking bath in the tub. I personally wind down at that time and often take a little nap. After the bath, I would watch one of the TV series that are part of my every increasing list. I prefer light hearted series at night mostly veering towards K-Dramas. With the binge watching I would love to draw or paint and update my journal.

Phase 6: Indulge
After that, probably dinner. Dinner could be anything but it has to end with an ice cream. If not something special, I usually prefer Haagen-Dazs Belgium chocolate. And with dinner, I would continue to watch the TV series.

Phase 7: Settle Down
The best part is always for the last! Take to the warm bed. Clean up everything from the whole day and then just tuck myself under the warm blankets and keep the TV series on till I fall asleep. It is a good thing that most of the online platforms have auto turn off or else my electricity bills would run high!

This kind of day I would not want it everyday though. Just once in a while. I think I appreciate more because it doesn’t happen that often. A day like this would give me the strength to get through the bad days. Besides, no matter how much stress my work brings I actually like working so “relaxing everyday” might not be a concept I can get behind.

Daily writing prompt
Describe your most ideal day from beginning to end.

Today I am a Different Person

Every single thing that has happened in my life has change the way I approach things.

In my opinion everyone is born with the hope, joy and positive energy. Well at least whenever I see a baby everything seems a whole lot happier. But time and circumstances change our perspective to life.

I loved anything shinny and bright. I was the kind that believed in unicorns and time travel. I loved watching silly rom-coms and movies that showed the power of good over evil. I genuinely believed that magic was present in the world, I believed butterflies were tiny fairies and that frogs could turn into princes.

Then, you grow up a little. People who you consider family hurt you, people you consider friends betray you and people you love destroy you. And every single time that one of this happens it takes away a little magic in your life.

Little by little all the light fades away and then you find yourself groping in the dark. Hoping and praying that you don’t disintegrate into pieces. Some of us stop right there and fade away into the monotony that the world or people set for us.

But sometimes, we learn to try again. We take that one last chance out of desperation and then the single ray of light floods back in. I am not bright and hopefully today like I was when I was a child. Today, I am cautiously hopefully and determined to make a way for myself.

“Two roads diverged in a wood, and I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.” – Robert Frost

My way is different and no one understands it completely. But even then I am happy enough for today.

Daily writing prompt
How do significant life events or the passage of time influence your perspective on life?

The Battle not yet Won

First and foremost I do not have a proper to do list. I keep things thinking that I should make one before I start the day and ensure that I have met all my goals by the end. However, the list is only written in the books of my mind which disappears when the next thought comes to my mind.

Despite this, the one thing I know that I really need to do is to “clean the attic”. From my childhood I think I am so what of a hoarder. I can’t let go of sentimental things. Even if the sentiments is of others rather than mine. If i know something is special to someone in my family I keep it safe till they choose to throw it out themselves.

My attic has years of things that I have “kept safe”. I feel that now since I have grown up a little in my mind I have understood that only when you let go of some of the old can I make space for new.

I definitely do not mean that everything old needs to be thrown out. I love keep sakes to remind me of happy memories but the piles of old notes that I have stored away just in case I might need to refer back to them. Or the clothes that I purchased once upon a time with the hope that I will fit in to them is just not worth the space.

Sooner that later I am gonna have to get to it. I have a battle to conquer with masks, brooms and boxes to allocate to trash and thrift. I have not got to it yet. But I am going to one day :). Unless of course another relocation will force me to downsize on my clutter sooner than later.

Daily writing prompt
Something on your “to-do list” that never gets done.