I feel tired today. I feel drained. I did not do anything today. Literally nothing.

I just want to be done with this one issue of my life. Its like a stone weighing me down. I can’t move. I feel like I am stuck in place and everyone is moving forward.

However, there is some part of me that thinks that I have been using this one problem as a reason for being lazy. I blamed all my failures to it. Now that I am finally reaching the end of that problem what if I still don’t move forward. What if I still lazy around and take things for granted.

I need to find something to anchor me. A reason to push forward. Something to hope for. I don’t know. Some part of me is scared to even hope. I don’t know if I can take failures. The only person who can help me through this spiral is Jesus. Praying to God that he gives me the strength to overcome this wild storm in my mind.

I made it one more day. One day at a time, breathe, pray, and repeat. It might not seem like a big achievement but it is something.