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You have No One

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Let’s be real, everyday I learn something new it could be life lessons or something I have to learn for classes or work.

Rather than something I have learnt it I want to share something I have realized. I have people who genuinely love me with no expectations and they try their best to protect me from harm. But sometime, even despite that I find myself alone.

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I am considered as the rebellious one because I always say what is on my mind. Or at least I did. I usually fight for things when I have a strong feeling about it. Often, I come out of the fight with a feeling of anger and a hidden feeling of grief. Over the years, I chose not to argue cause that did not hurt me further.

However, for crucial choices of my life, I gave into the what others wanted or more like needed. In the path of not wanting to stand out, I gave up pieces of my sanity. Today, when I want to get out of the bad situation, I have walls built by the very people who love me. I may be selfish thinking about myself only not worried about how my decision would effect others. But I think today I have reached the limit of my tolerance.

And so I realized that there are people who will support you in different decisions of your life but not all of them. To them, some of your choices may seem crazy and that is okay. Somedays you need to make the choices that make you happy, even if it means you have to make them alone.

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What is the last thing you learned?
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What’s Next?

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I despise the question of “what’s next?” no matter who asks it.

I am a person who doesn’t plan for anything. I literally prefer to live in the moment. I have huge dreams and I do work towards it. But if you ask me what is my plan… I will not have an answer.

People keep pestering you till we achieve something and if you hope that once you do achieve it you are done with it, you are wrong. It is like they are just waiting for you to finish one hurdle to start nagging you about the next one.

I still don’t get the logic behind their interest. Sometimes I just want to give a snarky reply like — “I live or die. What specific ailment does that cause you?” or “Don’t you have anything else to do with your life that you are commenting on mine” or “Not like you have achieved anything great in the past decade”. But I bite my tongue, take a deep breath and brush of the words and keep smiling.

I feel one should not ask such questions, tomorrow is not pre-determined. I have certainly developed anxiety because of all the question from all the people. What they do not realize is, we all adapt to the situations we are faced with. Some handle it with meticulous planning while others chose to “wing it”. Regardless, I think that everyone at some point in their life are hit with a situation where they do not know their next step.

I think rather than asking what’s next, one can say “One step at a time. You have done your best, I believe you will continue to do your best. I am here if you need me.”

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What is one question you hate to be asked? Explain.
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Juvenile Justice

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Rating: 4 out of 5.

The series revolve around the South Korean legal system.

In South Korea, children between 10-13 are sentenced to “reformation” which aims to for rehabilitation of the child back to society. However, children between 14-18 can be punished either with reformations or official punishment such as prison terms.

The series follows the story of Shim Eun-seok, a judge of the Juvenile Court who seems to harbor a strong dislike for juvenile offenders. At first look she seems like a cold hearted person with a vendetta to punish the children with the worst ruling that could be given.

Over the course of the series, the viewer will understand that Eun-seok is the kind of judge that goes above and beyond her job requirements. She sought to understand the mind set of the offender, to understand if there was any sought of genuine regret of the crime that was committed and not just taking the words that are spoken by them at face value. She is well aware that the lawyers that take up such cases try to give the offenders a loop hole to get the minimum sentencing possible.

In the series, we get a backstory to her life which puts a light on why was she so severe towards the juvenile offenders. We also see the life of another judge by the name of Kim Mu-yeol, who seems to be the other side of the coin. He believes in second chances and always believes that children when given enough care can be better. The series gives a peep into his past as well to understand the development of his character.

The series is definitely worth a watch in my opinion. The writer certainly knows how to tap into the emotions of the viewers helping one really connect with the main characters as well as the different situations faced by the children in each of the episodes.

Try Again

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Failing made me realize one crucial thing.

It was okay to fall, what you do after that is what matters. It took me some while to figure that out but I finally did.

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The failure that I will always remember is when I failed in my accountancy paper,\ over and over again. My teacher told me that there was no way that I would pass in my finals given my track record. At that time, I truly believed that was true. No matter how hard I tried I never understood anything. I felt dumb, useless.

And then there was a small shift, I studied hard with tears in my eyes and fervent papers on my lips and finally I made it through my finals (even though it was just barely).

I don’t exactly remember when accountancy got easier, but today I am pursuing a career in it.

I realized that my success took time, but as long as a kept trying, even failures eventually give up. The joy you get after failing numerous times, not giving up and finally getting that win — It is just beyond what words can explain.

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How has a failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?
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Impactful Start

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“If mess had to be personified it would be me.”

I love how my life turned out (at least on most days). If anyone were to ask me how I made it in life the only answer I know is “I don’t know”.

An earlier prompt asked what would be the tittle of my autobiography. It seems these prompts are going to make me actually write the whole thing!

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You’re writing your autobiography. What’s your opening sentence?
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A Different answer Everyday

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I am just glad that I have so many things but I does make it difficult to answer a question like this.

I think practically, I would say Water, Food and Clothes. The necessities in life.

If I were to be shallow, I would say Money, Phone and A Nice House. The things you need to be “Set for life”.

If I were philosophical, I would say Family, Friends and A Good home. The things that can heal my heart.

But I were to think of objects in particular, it would be My Journal, A pen and A pencil. These things are the ones that allow me to write and draw. And when I am doing those things I am at my happiest.

So yes, a new answer everyday.

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What are three objects you couldn’t live without?
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Failures

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Not to be too cliche but it is true..

I am the kind of person who generally does not work hard for something. But sometimes I make that extra effort to get something I really want. I would plan and replan till it was just right. Then I would stay focused and strive hard but despite everything I failed.

Initially, I used to think that was the end and just give up. When I would see others achieve what I could not I would make myself smaller. I kept thinking that I could not do it cause I was not good enough.

However, one day I decided to fight after may failure. And I realized the second time around I was easily able to navigate the mistakes and though it took me a couple of times to actually win, I eventually did.

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I realized that with every attempt I got better and faster. That was the turning point for me. I learnt to fight from then on. No matter how long it takes I will keep trying.

Like Edison said — “I have not failed, but found a 1000 ways how not to make one.”

What experiences in life helped you grow the most?

Make It or Break It

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Destiny…

I think that word brings a sort of relief to people. That one word invokes in us the feeling that some things are just meant to be, whether it be good or bad.

It’s easy to accept things as they come but fighting for something, it gives us a purpose. When we constantly fight against “destiny” it feels exhausting and there are times we feel that we just need to give up.

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I believe in making my own destiny. The world puts us in situations that sometimes compels us to do things that we never wanted to do. I could just give up and blame it on fate. But I have noticed that every time I have pushed back on this so called fate my life has changed. For that change to happen, I do go through a lot of pain but when I finally do succeed it was totally worth the fight.

I believe in fate but in the fate that I have built and not the one that people say is written in the stars for me.

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Do you believe in fate/destiny?
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Love to Hate it

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Do I love my “job”? It would depend on the day you ask me. I think everyone has those days where the stress of the job does not seem worth the pay of it.

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When I think about it I love the “work” I do. I chose my career path and am excited about learning new things. However, I have a need to give 100% to anything I do and when I can’t do that, I tend to get upset. My parents have instilled in me to be sincere to the job that pays the bill and I always try I do my best. The job is not always about the “work” though, it includes navigating through people’s expectations, office politics and sometimes unfair situations. Most days you handle it but some days it just gets you and then the job feels like a burden.

For me, my job keeps me occupied and there is only so many days I can “relax”. As a added advantage if I am working I not worrying and I welcome that break. But, I want to be so much more than just my job. I want to do things which does not need me to be perfect it just requires me to make progress.

I have realized to enjoy my job, I need to find the balance of perfect at my job and learning to take things lighter when doing art or writing. I have made small efforts to balance out my life this year and it has made a difference. Little by little I will reach where I intend to.

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Do you enjoy your job?
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A Home to call Mine

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I still live in my own home. But for sometime I lived on my own. That apartment was truly “my” home.

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Being the youngest in my family, I was never alone. Neither have I had any consequences for my decisions. My family protected me and reprimanded me in different instances. Though I had the freedom to make most of my choices I always limited my choices within my family’s expectations.

However, the first time I lived alone, though I was skeptical, the experience turned out to be a refreshing experience. For the first time in my life, I was the one making all the decisions and was the one bearing all the consequences as well.

I had an art nook where all of my stationary supplies and art supplies were arranged. All my collections were out in the open and for me just seeing them makes me happy. I bought my own groceries, cooked my own food, cleaned my home, decorated it for Christmas and Easter. I think more than any I miss being myself without any restraints.

It may have been a phase of my life that I have said goodbye to for now. However, I am hoping to get back to that phase again sooner rather than later.

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Describe a phase in life that was difficult to say goodbye to.
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