If Autumn had Snow..

I love the cold! I love the winter and I love the snow! Yes, there are the downsides to it but it is totally worth it.

However, it is me, I would never have a straight forward answer to a question and have a similar conundrum for this question as well. I love Autumn too. I love the skies, the falling leaves, the soft breeze that weather brings. I am not sure if it ever happens in nature, but if I could have a weather that combines all the aesthetics of autumn but also has the added bonus of snow, I guess then I have a definitive answer.

I think I have romanticized the concept of autumn in my mind so much, just a fallen leaf on the ground makes me happy. And snow is snow! It reminds me of a happier time! So I love both of those weathers equally and so I am not going to make a choice. 🙂

Daily writing prompt
What is your favorite type of weather?

In their Own Way

When I think of a teacher who has influenced me, more than one of them that come to my mind. I think each of them has influenced a different aspect of my life.

My English teacher, was so appreciative of a poem I wrote for her on her birthday. She literally went around the college and showing it off to all the other teachers. Her happiness on something that I felt was so small for the first time made me believe that I was good with words. I always remember her when I sit to write and I always remember how she cherished what I gave her.

My Econometrics teacher, called me aside one day and asked me to not stop studying. She told me that I was capable to get a PHD. I have always been an average student and believed that I was just common, a person who just gets by. When she said that I had such potential, at first I was taken by shock, but then the feeling of warmth filled my heart. It was from then that I stopped limiting myself to what others thought of me.

I could keep listing other instances where my teachers have influenced my life from time to time. And that is why, I believe each teacher in my life has changed me some way of the other.

Daily writing prompt
Who was your most influential teacher? Why?

Breathe

For me, this one word has been the thing that has kept me going. I remember a quote from my one of my favorite TV series which has resonated with me greatly.

“DONT HOLD YOUR BREATH, YOU STOP THINKING WHEN YOU STOP BREATHING…BREATHE”

Grey’s Anatomy

I keep repeating that to myself when I feel that I am drowning in the day’s turmoil. When everything seems difficult to do, when I feel that the I am stuck in the moment, and the next thing to do seems impossible. All I do is breathe. That one breathe helps me move on from that moment of uncertainty. The breathe that goes in will come out. I have taken the next step, even if I am not sure of anything else, breathing is something I can do.

So, if I were to ever have the guts to get a tattoo, it would be the word “Breathe” on my inner side of the right wrist.

Daily writing prompt
What tattoo do you want and where would you put it?

Journey in a Car

Though I love riding on by bike, for a cross country trip, I think that a car would be most suitable.

For one, I think it’s safer than a bike also I would be able to stop where I want and just enjoy the scene. Also, not having to lug around my luggage everywhere seems like nice thing. And the best part, I could park it somewhere and take a nap when required.

Not to lie though, the thought of travelling actually makes me anxious. I am not used to travelling alone but when I actual do travel it has always been an amazing experience.

Daily writing prompt
You’re going on a cross-country trip. Airplane, train, bus, car, or bike?

Everyone I Know

Everyone at some point in their life is confident. I always inspired by the people around me.

It’s a wonder to see how people rise up to occasions. You would think school is a minefield. You always get put on the spot, but there are some people even in situations like that are able to confidently navigate the situation.

And just when school gets over, we find the real world is a whole new game. Everything you do is scrutinized and judged. I was so scared of everything I did. But the more I observed the more I realized that no one has everything figured out. Even the smartest person made mistakes but the thing they did different was that they never paid heed to their failures.

They faced every situation with the best attitude and accepted the results no matter what. I am learning to be confident in myself, if not always, at least in certain situations to begin with.

Daily writing prompt
Who is the most confident person you know?

I’ll take a little more pain

I’ll take a little more pain,
If hurting me is what gets you to your feet,
I’ll take that pain.
If unloading your frustrations makes your day a little brighter,
I’ll take that pain.


If putting me down makes you stand a little taller.
I’ll take that pain.
If making me fell worthless is what you need to value yourself,
I’ll take that pain.


If blaming your failures on me is what gives you the courage to try again,
I’ll take that pain.
If silencing me is what gives you peace of mind,
I’ll take that pain.


If walking away from me is what you need to follow your dreams,
I’ll take that pain.
If breaking me down is what will build you back up,
I’ll take that pain.
I’ll take a little more pain to see you smile, dream and hope again!

Guilty as Charged

Anytime the word superstition is mentioned it is met with the judgement. “Don’t be silly”, “Use your brain”, these are the common phrases I hear and sometimes what I use too.

Education helps us get over most over the superstitions that have been passed down to us over centuries. But it would be remiss if I say I do not have any.

When I am too happy or rolling around with laughs I get this fleeting thought that something horrible is going to happen.

I do not travel on the first of the month because I believe the would be a death in the family. Well, there was one instance where it did happen and ever since then I have not been able to shake it off.

I say “touch wood” when I am say something I am hopeful or appreciative off. I do this cause I believe the in the “evil eye”, we not may intentionally mean harm but some cosmic events may result in something bad happening.

People would say “Faith above all else” and I believe in that. I believe that no matter what things will happen God will take care of it.

If someone were to ask why do I have such unfounded beliefs, I really don’t have an answer. I think it out of hope, I seriously hope and wish for that things turn out good. Maybe being a little superstitious feeds fuel to the fire of my hope. 🙂

“We need hope, or else we cannot endure.”
— Sarah J. Maas

Daily writing prompt
Are you superstitious?

A Century Lived

Greetings to my 100 year self,

I know we never wanted a long life but here we are. We probably cannot even read this but hopefully we still have our mind to remember this letter to ourselves.

If we have survived this long it means we had a hundred battles and we did not give up. We may not have had a lot of happy memories but they were enough to keep us going. We may have not achieved everything we wanted in life but we are still content.

I hope that we gave others more smiles than tears. I hope that there are people that still remember us fondly. I hope that we have enjoyed all the best the world had to offer. I hope that we made someone’s burden lighter and were the reason for their smile.

I hope that whatever days we have left maybe filled with the hope and love that we are worth. And last but not the least, thank you for loving us enough to keep on with the war called “life”.

Daily writing prompt
Write a letter to your 100-year-old self.

You have No One

Let’s be real, everyday I learn something new it could be life lessons or something I have to learn for classes or work.

Rather than something I have learnt it I want to share something I have realized. I have people who genuinely love me with no expectations and they try their best to protect me from harm. But sometime, even despite that I find myself alone.

I am considered as the rebellious one because I always say what is on my mind. Or at least I did. I usually fight for things when I have a strong feeling about it. Often, I come out of the fight with a feeling of anger and a hidden feeling of grief. Over the years, I chose not to argue cause that did not hurt me further.

However, for crucial choices of my life, I gave into the what others wanted or more like needed. In the path of not wanting to stand out, I gave up pieces of my sanity. Today, when I want to get out of the bad situation, I have walls built by the very people who love me. I may be selfish thinking about myself only not worried about how my decision would effect others. But I think today I have reached the limit of my tolerance.

And so I realized that there are people who will support you in different decisions of your life but not all of them. To them, some of your choices may seem crazy and that is okay. Somedays you need to make the choices that make you happy, even if it means you have to make them alone.

Daily writing prompt
What is the last thing you learned?

Failures

Not to be too cliche but it is true..

I am the kind of person who generally does not work hard for something. But sometimes I make that extra effort to get something I really want. I would plan and replan till it was just right. Then I would stay focused and strive hard but despite everything I failed.

Initially, I used to think that was the end and just give up. When I would see others achieve what I could not I would make myself smaller. I kept thinking that I could not do it cause I was not good enough.

However, one day I decided to fight after may failure. And I realized the second time around I was easily able to navigate the mistakes and though it took me a couple of times to actually win, I eventually did.

I realized that with every attempt I got better and faster. That was the turning point for me. I learnt to fight from then on. No matter how long it takes I will keep trying.

Like Edison said — “I have not failed, but found a 1000 ways how not to make one.”

What experiences in life helped you grow the most?