Do I even have one?

Daily writing prompt
What gives you direction in life?

I always feel adrift.

I hate questions of the future. It gives me anxiety. I don’t have an answer for it.

People say the more you grow older the more you figure out the answers to our questions. Ironically, the more you understand about reality the more you are clueless about it.

I have so many goals in life. Goals for my health, education, work, family. But on any given day if you ask me where do you see yourself in the future I go blank. I think it goes with the fact that I make great plans but when it comes to actually working on it I procrastinate.

But there has been on goal that has been in my life since I was old enough. To be a better Christian. I believe that if I keep that as a consistent goal in my life everything else will fall into place. Jesus gave me an example on how to be a good human despite the evils in the world. I hope that one day I can say that I am a better person than I was yesterday. If I can commit to the person who loves me the most, it makes sense that committing to the rest is going to be easy.

I hope that I learn to make Him my focus in life. I hope that He becomes my direction. And that every step I take in my life is towards His plan for my life.

Christmas

Daily writing prompt
What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?

Without a doubt Christmas is my most favorite holiday of the year and also the most waited!

We may have a million different problems in our life that weigh us down. But when Christmas comes around we forget about all that pain and hurt that the year brought us. We come together as a family and enjoy every minute of the joy we share together.

We bake cake and cookies. Often ending with baking fails of raw cake and burnt cookies. We decorate the Christmas tree and our home. Often spending more time in debating how the decoration should look like rather than actually getting the decoration done.

But the best of all we spend hours talking and listening to each other. And just like that you get the strength to fight for one more year.

Unamused

Daily writing prompt
What are your favorite emojis?

I love the unamused emoji the best.

It depicts me the best. I often avoid conversations and reserve my opinions. In most conversations I was the youngest so even if I had an opinion it really didn’t matter. Probably one of the reasons that I celebrate getting older.

Though I learnt to restrict my words my face however is an open book. I think 90% of the the time my unamused face reveals my opinion on the matter.

It is my most frequently used emoji in my phone. It completely expresses how I feel with out using words.

This and That

Daily writing prompt
What topics do you like to discuss?

I love discussing all types of topics.

It often starts with a news headline. If I see something in the news that I don’t understand I then go and try to search the net for more information.

I often get fascinated by things I don’t know and keep investigating it further. And in the off chance that I find someone who interested in the same topic I end up discussing the topic with them.

I love talking about new advancements in technology, changes in the market, new medical innovations.

On the other hand, on a non-newspaper influenced topic list stationary definitely tops the list. I love talking about new books, TV series, Cooking, Traveling.

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If I were to summarize, the topic really does not matter. What matters is who I am having the conversation with. With my sister and very few close friends I can talk about any topic under the sun.

Most Definitely

Daily writing prompt
Do you need time?

Time for what is the real question.

I need time for a lot of things. I think we as humans always feel that we are running short of time.

I think it mostly comes out of the fact that I procrastinate a lot. I keep putting off things with the idea that I have time. And when the deadline actually comes by, I have not completed the task and then I keeping wishing for more time.

I wish I had more time on vacations. I wish I could travel to all the places I wanted to see rather than remove things from my itinerary. I wish I had more time to appreciate each place that I could visit.

There are other things for which I wish I had more time. I wish I had more time with my grandparents. I wish they were there with me at an age that I could the love in their actions. I wish I had more time to understand them better.

So Yes, if there was time to spare I would surely want it.

Pantry Restock

Daily writing prompt
List your top 5 grocery store items.

As a child shopping for groceries was like an adventure. Today I don’t think I put in much thought to when I go to the grocery store.

I make a list at home before I go and the run around the store trying to gather all the items as soon as possible. The faster I am out of the store the better. All I think is the faster I can get the things back home the sooner I can make food and the sooner I can take rest.

If I were to list out my top frequent grocery store items are:
a. Bread
b. Milk
c. Eggs
d. Oil
e. Tissue

If the list was of my top 5 favorite grocery items are:
a. Wafers
b. Chips
c. Ice Cream
d. Coffee
e. Noodles

Everlasting Smile

Daily writing prompt
When are you most happy?

In the first instance of listening the question I would say when I buy new stationary. I get extremely excited when I place an order for a new marker or sticker. The joy of opening that package when it arrives is almost like opening a gift to myself.

However, if I were to think about it for a while about when am I genuinely happy I would have a different answer. I am the most happy when I can stand aside in the background and see the people I love be happy.

I am trying to be better person. The people that I love: my family and my friends they have given me a lot. When I was weak they have supported me in the ways possible by them. I won’t lie they have given a share of hurt but the joy they give is totally worth it.

I love seeing them smile and enjoy life. I wish I could remove all the horrible memories in their life. I know that it is not possible. However, I do hope to give them to enough happy memories that they forget the pain of the horrible ones. I think then I would the happiest i have ever been in my life.

Money Also Matters

Share a lesson you wish you had learned earlier in life.

All through my childhood I have heard this “Money can’t buy happiness”. When it comes to my parents and sister it definitely holds true. We did not have a rich lifestyle. We had no luxury travels or spa vacations. However, I had the most amazing childhood filled with happiness and the most craziest of memories.

As the years have gone by, my parents have gotten older. I have seen how the so called “relations” have changed the way they treat my parents. Till my parents helped them financial they were respected as elders in the house. Now that they are retired and confined to their small lives they cannot afford to spend much on others. I have seen my parents give up on their desires to make others happy. They limited their happiness to that of their family.

Now that I have grown up I want to at least try to give them some of their desires. To achieve that, I need to make money. Where money needs to to be spent it needs to be spent. And sometimes money can buy happiness. I want to take them on an trip maybe a cruise. It may not be something that they want but I want them to experience the “Luxuries” of life. I want them to have food in a fancy restaurant. I may not be able to remove the pain in their life. However, I want to give them some happy memories. They shouldn’t have to worry about the price tag associated with it.

I Could Try.. But Would I?

Daily writing prompt
What could you try for the first time?

I think this prompt is a weird one. I mean who asks “what could you try for the first time?”. I could try anything but I would try only those that I want too.

If I were to try something for the first time in food, it would maybe be Italian food. Particularly ravioli. I think I have eaten it when I was younger but I don’t remember it. Some where in my teenage years I fell sick after eating pasta and since then I have ran away from anything close to Italian. I have a family whole loves to explore new types of cuisine. All the while I sit in the corner with my fried chicken and fries. I hope that one day soon I can also come to appreciate the different cuisines around the world.

If I were to try something for the first time in activities, it would be deep sea diving. I find the life below the sea quite fascinating. But the sharks are definitely a factor that has deterred me from pursuing this activity. I mean I like the colorful fishes, but the teeth on the shark is enough to have me running in the other direction.

There are a million things that I want to try doing. I am super hesitant to try new things. However, I want to change that about me. Maybe start with one new thing a month and then slowly and gradually make it a habit.

Collection of Collections

Daily writing prompt
Do you have any collections?

I love collecting stuff. Over my lifetime I have had various collections.

I used to collect tiny shells whenever we visited the beach. I used to collect flower petals and dry them out. I used to collect recipes that I hoped to make one day. I used to collect old tattered notes from different countries.

Though I have given up collecting almost all of the things that I used to in my childhood I do still collect items.

I have continued my collection of stationery. Over the years I think it has almost converted to a sort of addiction. I still collect coins and notes. My collection of recipes has changed to an electronic format. I still love collecting cute hair clips though some might not consider it age appropriate. My collection of accessories has been reduced, I chose to get rid of the chains and keep only the pendants.

I think I would always have the instinct to collect items when my interest sparks in it. And I also am aware that when time passes as my interest changes so will my collections.