A Night to Remember

If you could host a dinner and anyone you invite was sure to come, who would you invite?

If I could invite anyone to dinner….

On first thought, I think maybe I would want to invite my favourite artist or writer or celebrity. Then I think again I don’t have anything common with them. I might not like them.

Maybe I wanna invite my old friends or teachers, but then again what if they have changed from the last time I met them. Or what if they see changing me which they don’t like?

I think to myself, maybe I am being a little shallow, and I should probably just invite my family, the people I love. But I have dinner with them every day.

But then, I give it a little more thought. Do I really want to have dinner with someone specifically? No, not really. Just imagine the work it would take to make the dinner, set the table, make pleasant conversation, and the cleanup after!

If I were to ever have the opportunity to invite someone, and they could not refuse. I probably would want to go to an art gallery or a museum. This way I would enjoy the time and I would not have to stress about making the evening perfect.

Me

What do you think gets better with age?

A little too cliche? I could say something like wine or cheese or any other thing. However, I’ve come to realise that the best version of me is always the tomorrow version of me.

Throughout my life, I’ve always had someone trying to advise me or teach me what is right and wrong. They do it to protect me to not make the same mistakes they did, but I have come to realise that my mistakes are the ones that teach me the best.

I have fallen into the most worst situations after not listening to the advice of my elders and notice that I end up, making the same mistakes over and over again. Till I finally draw the line myself,

I have learnt to work hard, even when everything feels like it’s crashing down on me. I have learnt not to hurt others just because I am hurting, I learnt that some days are filled with hopelessness, but you still keep fighting for that one day or one moment of happiness.

I think time has taught me to accept and move on. It has taught me that today is wrong, may just be tomorrow’s right.

I am grateful for what the years have taught me, and I am grateful for the years I may have left. I hope that everyone hold on and get to see the better version of themselves like I have.

Whenever Possible

What time do you go to bed and wake up currently?

I wish I could say that I have a proper sleep regiment. However, like most adults I sleep when I have the time to sleep.

When I was a kid, I remember crying and throwing a tantrum any time, my parents told me that it was time to sleep. Little did I know that when I grow up sleep would be the one thing that I crave the most.

During university days, late night parties, and midnight plans was something that was considered ritual. But now that I have started working and the reality of life has hit me, even when I am exhausted. I sometimes end up, sacrificing sleep to study or work.

I did try to stick to schedule where I woke up early and went to bed early, but that lasted about two weeks, so now I do not look at the clock anymore, the moment I feel drowsy, I whatever it is that I am working on and go to sleep.

And to wake up like most independent individuals, I keep about 8 to 10 alarms, which I snooze over 10 to 15 times before finally giving up and waking up to my day.

Absolutely Nothing

Being a pessimistic person really puts a dent in being excited about the future.

I want big things in the future but the focus and determination to achieve it often fades away after a few hours.

Since I don’t make the effort it obvious enough that I won’t actually reach my goals. I always think if I make all the effort and fail I would be upset more so instead I procrastinate.

I am learning to be hopeful again about my future and maybe soon I will also learn to be excited about it as well. 😊

What are you most excited about for the future?

Pride but not Honor

As a woman, I was always taught that we must sacrifice things for my family’s sake. To maintain the peace in the family.

It took me some time to figure out the difference between the two. I realized that pride is to feel superior to the others. And in most cases pride destroys everything. You tend to loose yourself in the battle to assert yourself as being better. The moment you let go of that pride you learn to accept things and people. Letting go of the pride needs to come from within it does not come from another’s advice. It happens when you realize that there is something more valuable that you will gain and letting go of your pride feels like freedom.

On the other hand, I also realized that not everything considered pride tends to be pride. Protecting your honor is not wrong. Honoring yourself is the truest form of self-love and though it is quite difficult to do, one must always try. Giving up your honor today, may not rock the boat today, but for the rest of your life you would have no harmony within yourself.

Choose what you need to let go to find peace. Take your time and make the right choices.

Daily writing prompt
What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony?

Small Gestures

Not a big fan of the world-altering romance. I think something like that would just overwhelm me.

I believe in the small actions that people do.

Like pretending to look at the phone just to give you time to catch up and walk together. Or switching the restaurant to one of your favorites.

Even though they seem like small insignificant things I think they have profound meaning. They are not done to be appreciated instead they are done out of habit. As if it’s the most normal thing for them to do.

I believe being part of someone’s normal is my kind of romantic. It almost feels like you share a world of your own with that person even though there are a billion people around you.

And that to me, is just beautiful.

Daily writing prompt
What’s your definition of romantic?

Chocolatey Goodness

I am unfortunately not a person with much of an idea when it comes to food and even lesser when it comes to chocolates.

But over the course of my life I have identified some flavors that work well with my limited palate. I love the taste of hazelnut in chocolate and I also love the taste of dark chocolate. I should mention that the chocolate that has always been close to my heart is “Kit-Kat”.

If I were to to describe my dream chocolate it would be the Kit Kat wafers with Dark Chocolate and Hazelnut cream! 🙂

Daily writing prompt
Describe your dream chocolate bar.

Empty Conversations?

I am not one for conversations. I choose to brood over things in my solitude.

It took me sometime but the only time I do “talk” to people is when I want a distraction. Random empty conversations might not add to anything useful in my life but they stop my mind from attacking me. Even if it is just for a short duration in that moment all my worries go to the back of my mind.

On rare occasions that I have a “heart-to-heart” conversations with someone it helps me realize that my life is much better than most people. It gives me a perspective other from my own and I get will to fight a little longer.

So contradictory to most people’s opinion, in my opinion empty conversations do have value.

Daily writing prompt
Who would you like to talk to soon?

Being Persistent

I prefer to not try rather than fail and I use that as an excuse every time I slip up.

I have huge plans of what to achieve in my future and I realize that to get there what I need more than anything is to keep pushing forward. It’s okay for those days where I just want to be lazy and waste time. All I need to learn is to get up and keep moving forward.

“One step backward two step forward.” I need learn to keep chipping at that block. Here’s to phase 2 of Year 2024.

Daily writing prompt
What’s one small improvement you can make in your life?

Seriously?

The first thought I have is ‘what a weird question’. My mind always is running. I have developed the habit of multi tasking and in most cases, at any given point, I think I am always thing of two things at the same time.

So I have no first thing that comes to my mind. the prompt should probably should have been “What is the first thing on your mind when you wake up?” and the answer would be — Where did I throw my bedsheet this time..

Daily writing prompt
Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.