It’s just been the fifth day of me, trying to maintain a consistent habit of writing a blog. I am already feeling like just giving up.
More than writing a blog consistently, I wanted to keep this blog as a way to keep myself accountable to the changes that I want to make in my life. I keep stalling on things such as waking up early and trying to exercise or even meditate for that matter.
The worst part of it all is that I still have not started reading my bible every day. I really want to be closer to God before I close my eyes not for the fear of hell or death. I just feel guilty that He was the one person that showed me consistent love, and I haven’t even begun to start loving him back.
Starting tomorrow I am going to make that conscious effort to read the bible and prayer before I start my day. Hopefully one day it becomes a necessity rather than a forced habit.
I am a calculated impulsive buyer. I do not know if that makes sense.
Name the most expensive personal item you’ve ever purchased (not your home or car).
It’s just that when I really want to buy something especially if the item in question is on the higher end of my usual spending bracket I take my time.
The “take my time” statement does not make sense when I call my self impulsive. Self Contradictory. To put things into perspective, the desire to buy is impulsive. As soon as I see something I like I want to buy it! The only thing that restricts me is my need for financial stability.
I end up saving for the item first. I take my time and restrict my expenses to the come up with the money to buy it. Sometimes by the time I save the money the item is out of the market and I loose the chance to buy it. However, on the other hand there are few items that I did end up buying.
My largest spends till date are: my Samsung Flip phone, my iPad and my Sony Camera. These may not be “pricey” according to some peoples standards but with my education expenses buying even these were a challenge.
Totally worth the wait and worth the cost! I think the wait to buy it made the actual purchase even more special!
I have never had a proper understanding of the different genres of music. In fact for a long time, I did not even know that there were different genres.
My mom and sister love listening to music so I never was a stranger to it. Add to that the fact that I was 5 when I first joined the junior choir, it was a natural progression that I would develop an interest in music of my own.
My music interest started with gospel music. Closer to my teens I developed my interest in music separate from my family. Though I was not aware of it at that time I believe that I automatically divert towards “Pop” music.
Though pop music has always been my top choice that spans across languages. I have ventured into other genres like R&B, Blues, Hip-hop, rock etc..
I love exploring new music and listening to artists from different regions. Music is my daily requirement now. I listen to music when I work, when I study, when I cook even at times when I sleep. Genres have never restricted my choice or interest in music and I hope that I continue to love music in its many forms.
I think the first and only time we went for a live performance was when I was 8 or 9 years old.
The memory I quite vague but it was a live performance of Pokémon. I don’t remember much of the actual performance but I have blurry memories of the characters. I remember seeing Ash and Pikachu, and oddly, I remember Team Rocket in the “sky”.
I remember sitting in the park, which had an amphitheater area, I remember buying popcorn, and a ring that had flashing lights. But the most distinct memory I have is of the Pikachu balloon that my mom bought for me. It was those helium inflated Pikachu shaped ones, and I was thoroughly fascinated by it. I carried it around the home with me for the rest of the week. Wherever I went, my Pikachu came with me.
But, watching another live performance once in my life is on my bucket list of things to do before I die. Hopefully, sooner than later!
Being a Pilot was a dream that I had when I was a kid.
I used to keep looking at the skies fascinated by how humans fly. I have traveled a lot by plane, but being the person at the controls… now that is something else.
Of course, dreaming is one thing but consciously working towards it is another ball game all together. It takes a lot of dedication, discipline and time to touch the skies.
Over time my dreams have changed but if I could have the skills and the qualification I would love to fly a plane. Just one day would be enough!
I think there is a general aura around branded goods. If its costly the quality is going to be top notch.
I think that had I grown up with that kind of money I probably would only prefer the branded items in all things. However, I have grown up in a middle class family and budget over brands was the rule. Why buy something branded when doing so would affect the overall monthly budget.
I will not say that I do not like branded items though. Who wouldn’t love a Louis Vuitton or a Prada bag? But like always I default to the use. If I use it too much the branded item would wear out soon and if I don’t use it what is the point!
Today, I buy items on how I would use it. The only time I buy something branded would be to commemorate a special achievement. And I follow the policy that if you buy something costly it better not be on credit. I try my best to save up for the item I have my eye on. By doing so one of three things happen. One: I get to buy the item and the wait would be totally worth it. Two: By the time I make the money for the item it goes out of the market and then I stew with regret for a couple of weeks vowing that next time I wont delay. Or Three: I get over the desire to buy the branded item and end up adding the amount to my savings.
When we are self focused we seldom realize that there are people in this world who have walked the same path. What seems so difficult to us right now someone has already overcome it.
My Parents It is very irritating when they start with the line “When we were young…”. However, whenever I am stuck in a decision my parents are my first source of advice. I may not always follow their advice but their perspective teaches me a different thought process than I could imagine. There are times when I choose not to trouble my parents and make my own decisions. My parents keep watching me closely making sure they are there next to me the instant I need them. They never want me to fall, but they want to be there every time I need support to get back up.
My Sister Some would find it odd why I chose to mention my sister separately. But she deserves the specific mention. She may not be very old to me but she has taken care of me at every stage. If it was up to her she would tie me up with a mattress and cushion so that nothing can harm me. “To harm her you need to cross over my dead body” – seems like a very cliché line in movies. My sister doesn’t need to say it, cause with her every action she shows it. She goes to the extent of saving me from myself. She doesn’t sugar coat her advice. If may not always like it but I know she says things out of love. I may not understand it an the very moment but eventually it all makes sense
My Mentors At different stages of my life I meet with different people who guide me. Whether it be in school, college or at work. Each and every one of them have taught me something new. The most astonishing part of the whole thing is that they do so with so much humility. They know so much but yet they come down to my level to help me understand things. I admire those who can impart knowledge with such impact.
My Friends I admire all my friends. I think I become friends with people because I am fascinated by their moral character. Some them are epitome of patience, some are so selfless, some of them are so self driven and motivated. All characteristics I seem to lack in. I turn to them for advice when sometimes I just want another perspective.
I hate questions of the future. It gives me anxiety. I don’t have an answer for it.
People say the more you grow older the more you figure out the answers to our questions. Ironically, the more you understand about reality the more you are clueless about it.
I have so many goals in life. Goals for my health, education, work, family. But on any given day if you ask me where do you see yourself in the future I go blank. I think it goes with the fact that I make great plans but when it comes to actually working on it I procrastinate.
But there has been on goal that has been in my life since I was old enough. To be a better Christian. I believe that if I keep that as a consistent goal in my life everything else will fall into place. Jesus gave me an example on how to be a good human despite the evils in the world. I hope that one day I can say that I am a better person than I was yesterday. If I can commit to the person who loves me the most, it makes sense that committing to the rest is going to be easy.
I hope that I learn to make Him my focus in life. I hope that He becomes my direction. And that every step I take in my life is towards His plan for my life.
Without a doubt Christmas is my most favorite holiday of the year and also the most waited!
We may have a million different problems in our life that weigh us down. But when Christmas comes around we forget about all that pain and hurt that the year brought us. We come together as a family and enjoy every minute of the joy we share together.
We bake cake and cookies. Often ending with baking fails of raw cake and burnt cookies. We decorate the Christmas tree and our home. Often spending more time in debating how the decoration should look like rather than actually getting the decoration done.
But the best of all we spend hours talking and listening to each other. And just like that you get the strength to fight for one more year.
Share a lesson you wish you had learned earlier in life.
All through my childhood I have heard this “Money can’t buy happiness”. When it comes to my parents and sister it definitely holds true. We did not have a rich lifestyle. We had no luxury travels or spa vacations. However, I had the most amazing childhood filled with happiness and the most craziest of memories.
As the years have gone by, my parents have gotten older. I have seen how the so called “relations” have changed the way they treat my parents. Till my parents helped them financial they were respected as elders in the house. Now that they are retired and confined to their small lives they cannot afford to spend much on others. I have seen my parents give up on their desires to make others happy. They limited their happiness to that of their family.
Now that I have grown up I want to at least try to give them some of their desires. To achieve that, I need to make money. Where money needs to to be spent it needs to be spent. And sometimes money can buy happiness. I want to take them on an trip maybe a cruise. It may not be something that they want but I want them to experience the “Luxuries” of life. I want them to have food in a fancy restaurant. I may not be able to remove the pain in their life. However, I want to give them some happy memories. They shouldn’t have to worry about the price tag associated with it.
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