Patience

Daily writing prompt
What is one thing you would change about yourself?

I always act first without thinking and then I always end up replaying the scenario in my head on how I could have handled it better.

I have always admired people who can handle their emotions well. They do not say things that hurt even if the other person is attacking them. How do they do it? When there is someone coming at you barking mad, it would take every ounce of patience to not lash back.

The choice to be calm in such situation takes a lot of maturity. I am trying to learn to be more patient. Now-a-days I at least try to listen to the other person before charging in with my words. Though I am trying to listen better, I still realize that I have not gotten better at listening to the conversation without letting the words affect me.

I want to be better and more patient. There are many times that I say things in anger that I don’t mean. It just takes a moment for the words to leave the mouth but it leaves the other person hurt every time they think about it.

I hate knowing that I am the reason for someone’s pain. I want to be a better person. The life in this world is hard enough. I do not want to be the reason that someone is pushed over the edge. There were people in my life who took me nearly to the edge. I just wanted the pain to end and was close to making some wrong choice.

It is at times like this that I thank Jesus for His presence in my life. Even after all the stupid things I do He takes care of me. Even when everyone in my life was spewing hurtful words He was there. I could feel His presence in my loneliness and I am grateful to have a chance to know that sacrifice He made for me.

Night Owl

Daily writing prompt
Are you more of a night or morning person?

I have always been a night person. Throughout my school years, I have preferred sitting late into the night to study.

When I was younger I thought it was because my sister woke up early in the morning. Since we shared one study table among us it just made sense to study at different times.

But over the years I have noticed that I am more productive in the late hours. I prefer the silence. There is no one else awake with me so I can do what I have to at a stretch without any interruptions.

Ironically, the first job I had was a night shift job which completely altered my sleep cycle. I initially liked working at night and then having the day to myself.

However, over the years I do realize the toll staying up at night has taken on my body. I am trying to switch over to being a morning person. I want to wake up earlier and finish more in the early hours of the day. I think by doing that I can feel a sense of accomplishment at the end of the day rather than the stress of not having done enough.

I am trying to sleep earlier and wake up earlier even if I feel tired. I want to start my day with a walk in the fresh air. I also want to cut down on my coffee intake and hopefully reduce my procrastination during the day.

Time will Tell

Daily writing prompt
If you didn’t need sleep, what would you do with all the extra time?

I think my answer to this question will vary depending when I actually answer the question.

When I am in a more artistic mood, I would want to learn how to draw better. I want to learn how to draw portraits. The realistic kind with minute details.

When I am in an DIY mood, I would want to learn how to use power tools so that I can build something. Maybe a table or a small shelf.

When I am in a studious mood, I want to complete my ever piling syllabus. I want to focus and finish studying and also pass my exams.

When I am in an organizing mood, I want clean up each and every inch of the house I live. Also, I want to reorganize all the things in the house.

When I am in the cooking mood, I probably want to learn how to bake and cook new cuisines.

Or if I am in a lazy mood, I would just want to sleep!

Controversial Dislikes

Daily writing prompt
Name your top three pet peeves.

Pet peeves you say?

I think I am quite a judgmental person. I am trying to change that bad trait but I am not there yet. Because of this, I think my biggest pet peeve is optimistic visualization. I am more of the “hope for the best prepare for the worst” kind of person. I veer towards the worst case scenario and often default to hoping for nothing just so I do not get disappointed. When I meet someone who keeps pushing the agenda of Positive visualization it irks me. Life is about highs and lows. You are going to have bad days its only then that you appreciate the good days when they happen. If that person wants to believes in the best outcome always that is their choice but pushing that mindset onto somebody else gets frustrating.

Another thing that I dislike is extremely long nails. I think this comes from the hygiene perspective. I love making art and often times my nails get stained in the process. To get them clean after my artistic endeavors are a hassle. I often ended up scrubbing my hands over and over again till they are clean. I always wonder how to the people with long nails manage to keep them clean. Another question, how to they manage to do everyday things so easily. Kudos to those who are experts in handling those nails along with keeping them clean.

The last pet peeve I have is something about myself. I have curly hair baby hair on both sides of my head close to my temples. I hate it when they curl up. They look like little horns. The rest of my hair is wavy. Though my hair is extremely frizzy. I will any day take the frizz over those two horns on the side of my head. I end up either cutting them short or straitening the strands everyday just to get rid of the curls. I know its and odd peeve but what can I say I am weird! 🙂

That brings me to the end of my list. There are many more but since the post asks for top 3 I end the post here.

My Own Home

Daily writing prompt
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?

Being the youngest in my family I have always been pampered. There was nothing ever that I needed and not got.

You never really appreciate what you have. You always want what others have. For a short while I had a place that I could call my home. And the feeling was just amazing. It was a strange place among strange people but I still managed to to find happiness.

I would not like to live in a place that is ravaged by wars or in a place where woman do not have equal rights. Other than that, I think I would love to call any place my home. And the only place that I would want to live is my home.

Too philosophical? Agreed! But no regrets! I stay with my words.

Everything

Daily writing prompt
What is good about having a pet?

In my opinion everything about having a pet is amazing!

There will be some that will disagree especially when you see your ripped clothes or have your furniture peed on.

But for me, all that is just small things. No matter what mood I am in, my puppy always knows how to make things better. I do not know how.

On days that I come home after a grueling day at work, he runs around me in circles. Then, he runs straight at me. He makes all the exhaustion from the day just vanish. I end up playing with him and feeling energized.

Sometimes when I sit and cry, he slowly crawls into my lap and licks away my tears. He puts his head on my shoulder and keeps it there till I stop crying.

When I watch him running in his sleep or watch him trying to catch a mosquito it instantly brings a smile to my face.

To those who feel alone in this world even with everyone around do try to adopt a pet. They don’t use words. They do not understand what you are going through but they try their best to fill your void.

I stopped trying

Daily writing prompt
How do you manage screen time for yourself?

A few years ago this question would not apply to me. I repelled from my phone. Many times, I lost track of my phone for days. I only remembered it when I needed to make a phone call.

Today, though, I use my phone for nearly the whole time I am awake! I need it to constantly play something even if I do not actually pay attention to what is playing.

I realized I was connected to my phone for too much time during the day. I started setting timers on the apps that I used the most. It worked for a little time.

But I stopped trying. I realized that using my phone helped me disconnect from the things that were bothering my mind. I have not gained anything by spending so much time on my phone. Furthermore, I have also become a procrastinator.

I accept that it may not be a healthy option, but it is the way I cope or deal with things. My mind is an overthinking machine. I could be seriously working or cooking. Meanwhile, my brain thinks of all the mistakes I made in my life. It tells me I am the reason for all my failures. It convinces me that I deserve whatever happened to me.

So if mindless scrolling is what I need to cope with right now I am going with it. Maybe I will gradually use my phone less. I will learn to accept my reality. I will be content with it. And then I will no longer need the mindless activities to keep my mind from attacking me.

A Silent Prayer from my heart for you

I wish you success and joy wherever you go,
Cause I have seen the tears of sadness from the days before.

I wish you love abundant to fill your lifetime,
Cause I know the silent heartbreaks you have hidden within.

I wish you have smiles of the everlasting kind,
Cause I noticed the ones that faded away with time.

I wish you hope that feeds your dreams,
Cause I know the pain of failures you carry on your shoulders.

I wish you contention in the life you live,
Cause I know you only lived your life for others.

I wish that you always move forward,
Cause I have seen the chains of responsibilities that tie you down.

And last of all, I wish you faith in yourself,
Remember that what you have achieved, no one else has.

Undisturbed Routine

Describe your ideal week.

Ideal week?

To me, the ideal week would be when I achieve all that I set to achieve for the week.

I wanna be able to wake up every morning, pray sincerely, complete my morning exercise, prepare my meals. Then, go to work and complete all the targets for the day, share some good conversations with my friends. At the end of work, get back home and take some time to maybe do some art or something I like. And finally have a good nights rest..

I would say something is ideal when not much goes wrong. I know it is challenges that help us grow, but some days you just want to live without a care in the world.

However, as much as I like a carefree life, I know that I would definitely get bored of it soon. But maybe once in awhile, little break wouldn’t harm anyone.

Hanyu Yuzuru

Daily writing prompt
Name the professional athletes you respect the most and why.

I love watching ice skating. Its so peaceful and so mesmerizing. Words cannot describe it. Yuzuru makes magic happen on ice. I always thought that grace is associated with women but all of his performances exudes that.

I know that there are many other athletes who are as passionate about their sports as him. However, being a person who has zero knowledge of sports of any kind I very often don’t know about half of them.

I believe all athletes should be respected it takes a lot of commitment and sacrifices to be the best in their profession. Not everyone is born with that drive. They struggle in silence but their hard-work pays off as appreciation of millions of others. Funny part, they never think of the applause when they struggle, they only think of their end goal.

Such unadulterated passion not only deserves respect, it commands it!