Me

What do you think gets better with age?

A little too cliche? I could say something like wine or cheese or any other thing. However, I’ve come to realise that the best version of me is always the tomorrow version of me.

Throughout my life, I’ve always had someone trying to advise me or teach me what is right and wrong. They do it to protect me to not make the same mistakes they did, but I have come to realise that my mistakes are the ones that teach me the best.

I have fallen into the most worst situations after not listening to the advice of my elders and notice that I end up, making the same mistakes over and over again. Till I finally draw the line myself,

I have learnt to work hard, even when everything feels like it’s crashing down on me. I have learnt not to hurt others just because I am hurting, I learnt that some days are filled with hopelessness, but you still keep fighting for that one day or one moment of happiness.

I think time has taught me to accept and move on. It has taught me that today is wrong, may just be tomorrow’s right.

I am grateful for what the years have taught me, and I am grateful for the years I may have left. I hope that everyone hold on and get to see the better version of themselves like I have.

Whenever Possible

What time do you go to bed and wake up currently?

I wish I could say that I have a proper sleep regiment. However, like most adults I sleep when I have the time to sleep.

When I was a kid, I remember crying and throwing a tantrum any time, my parents told me that it was time to sleep. Little did I know that when I grow up sleep would be the one thing that I crave the most.

During university days, late night parties, and midnight plans was something that was considered ritual. But now that I have started working and the reality of life has hit me, even when I am exhausted. I sometimes end up, sacrificing sleep to study or work.

I did try to stick to schedule where I woke up early and went to bed early, but that lasted about two weeks, so now I do not look at the clock anymore, the moment I feel drowsy, I whatever it is that I am working on and go to sleep.

And to wake up like most independent individuals, I keep about 8 to 10 alarms, which I snooze over 10 to 15 times before finally giving up and waking up to my day.

Pride but not Honor

As a woman, I was always taught that we must sacrifice things for my family’s sake. To maintain the peace in the family.

It took me some time to figure out the difference between the two. I realized that pride is to feel superior to the others. And in most cases pride destroys everything. You tend to loose yourself in the battle to assert yourself as being better. The moment you let go of that pride you learn to accept things and people. Letting go of the pride needs to come from within it does not come from another’s advice. It happens when you realize that there is something more valuable that you will gain and letting go of your pride feels like freedom.

On the other hand, I also realized that not everything considered pride tends to be pride. Protecting your honor is not wrong. Honoring yourself is the truest form of self-love and though it is quite difficult to do, one must always try. Giving up your honor today, may not rock the boat today, but for the rest of your life you would have no harmony within yourself.

Choose what you need to let go to find peace. Take your time and make the right choices.

Daily writing prompt
What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony?

Chocolatey Goodness

I am unfortunately not a person with much of an idea when it comes to food and even lesser when it comes to chocolates.

But over the course of my life I have identified some flavors that work well with my limited palate. I love the taste of hazelnut in chocolate and I also love the taste of dark chocolate. I should mention that the chocolate that has always been close to my heart is “Kit-Kat”.

If I were to to describe my dream chocolate it would be the Kit Kat wafers with Dark Chocolate and Hazelnut cream! 🙂

Daily writing prompt
Describe your dream chocolate bar.

Empty Conversations?

I am not one for conversations. I choose to brood over things in my solitude.

It took me sometime but the only time I do “talk” to people is when I want a distraction. Random empty conversations might not add to anything useful in my life but they stop my mind from attacking me. Even if it is just for a short duration in that moment all my worries go to the back of my mind.

On rare occasions that I have a “heart-to-heart” conversations with someone it helps me realize that my life is much better than most people. It gives me a perspective other from my own and I get will to fight a little longer.

So contradictory to most people’s opinion, in my opinion empty conversations do have value.

Daily writing prompt
Who would you like to talk to soon?

Being Persistent

I prefer to not try rather than fail and I use that as an excuse every time I slip up.

I have huge plans of what to achieve in my future and I realize that to get there what I need more than anything is to keep pushing forward. It’s okay for those days where I just want to be lazy and waste time. All I need to learn is to get up and keep moving forward.

“One step backward two step forward.” I need learn to keep chipping at that block. Here’s to phase 2 of Year 2024.

Daily writing prompt
What’s one small improvement you can make in your life?

A Few Words of Comfort

Many times in life I see people who seem to be lost in thoughts their face filled with worry and grief.

I used to walk past them with hesitant steps. I really wanted to talk talk to them, to give then a ear. I was never sure how to approach them and I had the constant fear “What if I say the wrong thing”.

Today however, I take the chance, I ask them if they need to talk or if everything is okay. I think if everyone took the time, to ask how others are doing even when they are unsure it makes a huge difference.

Daily writing prompt
Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?

Choosing my Career

I know many would probably have a better answer to this.

It is the first choice I made without anyone’s influence. No parents, no friends, no hours of research. It was a “Eyes closed Giant Leap”. And it has been worth it. I have realized that since I chose a career than neither my parents nor my sister knew nothing about I fight harder to make it work.

It was a risk and I fight everyday to have no regrets on it. Everything that I gained or loose in the way to get to my destination is totally worth it.

Daily writing prompt
Describe a risk you took that you do not regret.

Draw

There are many things that I do to unwind.

Sometimes I like to draw up a warm bath and read a nice book. Or maybe just order in food and put on a K-drama on TV and binge watch till I fall asleep.

But the best thing I like to do is to draw. I love any sort of art. It disconnects me from the world and makes me just happy.

How do you unwind after a demanding day?

Rainy Day Compliment

I always walk to office. It’s too close to take a cab but the uneven terrain makes it more hard than it would have been on level ground.

I always try to leave office before it turns dark so I have the daylight with me. In my locality, people usually don’t smile, everyone keeps moving with a purpose. I quickly adapted to that lifestyle, I put headphones on my ear, my hoodie over my head and eyes on the distance I need to cover.

But one day on the way back to home, the small drizzle decide to become a heavy rain. I was too far from my office to make my way back and I was too stubborn to take cover till it slowed down. So, I kept walking and then out of the blue a stranger at the bus stop yelled “Hey beautiful! Whatever you are fighting for you will make it! Keep Hustling!”

I don’t even remember her face given that the rain drops were in my eyes but it made me smile. I yelled back “Thank you!” not just for the compliment but for giving me a little more strength to carry through life.

Whoever you are, if you ever read this post, Thank you for giving me a happy memory. It took you a couple of seconds, but you made it into my core memories.

Daily writing prompt
Describe a random encounter with a stranger that stuck out positively to you.