Leaving Toxic people is Good

Forever, I had think innate need to hold on to people. I felt that I needed to be there for them. Little did I know how much that would affect me.

I was taught that you do not abandon people when they are in a bad situation. For a long long time I maintained that and fought hard. I kept thinking to myself that the person that I was standing by would realize my commitment to them and reciprocate at least a portion of it.

But like they say, the stronger you try to hold on to things the more it hurts. I kept hoping and waiting and at the end of the day all I got was humiliation and loneliness.

It hurts like crazy when you have to walk away from someone and you regret it immediately. But if you hold true and stay away, it almost like a shroud slips away and everything seems a much better.

You finally realize how easy breathing can be when you not burdened by the overthinking. Slowly and gradually you realize and accept that sometimes walking away is really the best thing you did for yourself.

Daily writing prompt
Describe a decision you made in the past that helped you learn or grow.

Seldom Recognized

My family always does things for me. I think most families do, but it tends to go unnoticed because we take things for granted.

As a kid, I remember my sister not opening a packet of chips or a bar of chocolate till I was home. My father carried me on his shoulders despite being exhausted himself. My mother gave me kisses before she left for work even when she thought I was sleeping.

After growing up, I remember my sister standing up to my father when he said hurtful things to me. My mother gave a warm huge when I was going through a bout of depression (even though she did not know it. At least I think she didn’t). My father buys me spicy food when I am down with cold even when I don’t ask for it.

So there you go, I really can’t say just one isolated incident, there are multiple scenarios scattered over my whole lifetime. Family can be a handful at times but I am thankful that I have them.

Daily writing prompt
Describe a positive thing a family member has done for you.

Where there is Good Food

I am not one to understand that much about food. Weird as it may sound, food is complicated for me.

I do not understand the nuances of the various flavors and their balance. For me if the food is not bad it is good. As such, I have not developed any particular interest to any sort of restaurant. As long as the food tastes good I would like the restaurant.

The one thing I do understand when deciding if a restaurant is good is if the atmosphere is comfy and does not put me on edge. I love when there are booths which give a little privacy and comfy chairs.

So in conclusion, give me a comfortable setting and good food I will rate the restaurant as a favorite. 🙂

Daily writing prompt
What is your favorite restaurant?

Kaleidoscope of Destinies

If you were to ask me yesterday I would say settled, owning a small business, maybe a house and car.

However, today I am philosophical, as I speculated on the prompt the answer that came to my mind was “How the hell would I know?”. All I see when I think 10 years ahead is uncertainty.

I feel that every situation in my life makes me make a choice and that in turn changes the course of my life. On any other day I would stress out and want to fight harder to get back on track. But today, I am choosing to keep making progress it may not be what I initially planned but that is okay.

I may not achieve things by the initial timeline I set for them, but, as long as I keep trying there is a hope that I will get there eventually.

Daily writing prompt
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

Count them Off

Five things that make me happy…

I can find happiness in almost anything if I put my mind to it. Unfortunately, I am tuned to always search out the worst case scenarios.

If the questions was about people the answer is easy, my family and friends make me happy. But when I am on my own there are few things that can bring a smile to my face-

  1. Writing – Always close to my heart. My venting option when I have no shoulders to rely on. My most cherished companion, the keeper of my darkest secrets.
  2. Drawing – Stress buster. No matter whatever the situation when I need to calm myself down all I need is a pencil and paper and the world just slows down.
  3. Singing- Well, music makes most people happy. I don’t really think this needs an explanation.
  4. Reading – The gateway to the worlds of imaginations. The world of books are so fascinating. Anything is possible and I think even today even after I am an adult I still believe in the possibility of magic because of the many books I have read.
  5. My stationery collection – As an avid stationary collector, seeing the different items I have collected over the years definitely makes me happy.
Daily writing prompt
What are 5 everyday things that bring you happiness?

Useful Skills

Growing up, I always try to contemplate the purpose of all the subjects we had in school. I ended up concluding that there was no real purpose.

However, each class did teach me something. Languages taught me how to communicate, Sciences taught me how things work, Maths taught me how to… well… add up things. I could go on about it.

However, leaving the typical subject we learn in the classroom. There was something called skills classes that we were taught. In that class, we were taught how to how to attend/take interviews, give presentations, dress up formally, dinner etiquettes and believe or not make up!

At the time it was taught I found it to be boring, but now that I am actually working, It really makes me realize how small things can make a huge impact!

Daily writing prompt
Describe something you learned in high school.

Harry Potter

I think the Harry Potter books was an unexpected series. It opened people to a world of magic! I mean the concept of a school of magic, a parallel world existing where magic exists, I especially love how they intertwined the “normie” world with the magical world. It is truly amazing!

As a child, the world of imagination just got a whole lot bigger. And I am aware there were more amazing magical books that were published over the years. But the Harry Potter series will always hold a special place in my heart and yes, whenever I get a chance, I dive right back into the magical world of Hogwarts.

Daily writing prompt
What book could you read over and over again?

Merlin

Okay let’s be real! I did not read the book I instead watched the TV series.

I totally loved the way the actor has portrayed the character of Merlin. I loved the love hate relationship between him and the character King Arthur. But more importantly, I love Merlin’s journey to discover his Magic.

Merlin is stated to be the greatest magician of all time. Just imagine! To be so powerful! To be able to make everything in the world better. Hmm.. come to think of it I would not like being the one with the ultimate power. I mean, it is said that power corrupts and I think I would easily go to the dark side.

If I could be Merlin without falling prey to the dark side of the magic that would be the character I want to be.

Daily writing prompt
If you could be a character from a book or film, who would you be? Why?

Panda Caretaker!

I know I could probably say something more meaningful. But from the numerous videos seen online being a panda caretaker seem fun!

I know every job has its down side but the upside seems too good to focus on the bad. I mean just look at the videos. I mean seeing at how clumsy they are it is truly a wonder how they survive.

I think anyone who love to hug them! They are so cute and if you think its just when they are small, you are mistaken because even full grown they can be a menance!

Daily writing prompt
What job would you do for free?

Adapt or Accept

I think the time before COVID everyone was just running around. We all were just focused on the next race without ever thinking about the end goal. COVID slowed us down a little. At one point of time everything was just too overwhelming.

I think for that one part it worked to my favor. I liked staying indoors turned into somewhat like a vampire. I enjoyed the smaller crowds, the fact that you could stay at home in the comfort of your PJs and spend time just talking with family and friends.

I am not sure if I have adapted that well, I think I mostly just accepted the change out of the uncertainty that it posed. I think with everything there is always a good and a bad. But I sincerely hope that no one ever has to face such a fear in life again.

Daily writing prompt
How have you adapted to the changes brought on by the Covid-19 pandemic?