Not an Easy Answer

I love most animals.. I say most because I am also scared of some of them. They are all creatures that were created by God. You just have to look at each one and know that every one of them are special and unique.

I think animals are pure. They have their inherent nature and do not live to hurt but rather to survive. People say “animal behavior” considering us humans to be better.

We were created in God’s image out of His love for us but that in no terms makes us greater, cause it’s His love that makes us unique.

I do not know enough about the beautiful creations of God to compare myself to them. I think we humans know so little about them it would be impossible to give an answer. Anything I say would be out of what I think I know about them and that won’t be the right answer. Maybe someday, when I have a better knowledge I will have an answer to this question.

Daily writing prompt
Which animal would you compare yourself to and why?

A Century Lived

Greetings to my 100 year self,

I know we never wanted a long life but here we are. We probably cannot even read this but hopefully we still have our mind to remember this letter to ourselves.

If we have survived this long it means we had a hundred battles and we did not give up. We may not have had a lot of happy memories but they were enough to keep us going. We may have not achieved everything we wanted in life but we are still content.

I hope that we gave others more smiles than tears. I hope that there are people that still remember us fondly. I hope that we have enjoyed all the best the world had to offer. I hope that we made someone’s burden lighter and were the reason for their smile.

I hope that whatever days we have left maybe filled with the hope and love that we are worth. And last but not the least, thank you for loving us enough to keep on with the war called “life”.

Daily writing prompt
Write a letter to your 100-year-old self.

A Foreign Spree

I thought I was immune to the “shopping bug” but I was pleasantly mistaken. While I do not have any particular interest for shopping for clothes, am a stationery collector.

I love stationery! They make me happy! I started small with when I got my first salary but as and when I started earning more, my stationery shopping budget increased subsequently. Whenever I am stressed a new box of pencils or a paints or even a new sketchbook is all I need to make my mood better.

The one place I dream of going is to Tools Ochanomizu. I was first introduced to the store by a Youtuber named Minori. She is just such a beautiful artist and she often takes her viewers along with her on her art supplies haul. I do not know if words can ever describe the desire I have so take a look at the pictures from the stores. It seems like a art supply haven.

Please also do visit her Youtube channel, she is a very positive person and seeing her content always makes my day.

Daily writing prompt
Where would you go on a shopping spree?

Try Again

Failing made me realize one crucial thing.

It was okay to fall, what you do after that is what matters. It took me some while to figure that out but I finally did.

The failure that I will always remember is when I failed in my accountancy paper,\ over and over again. My teacher told me that there was no way that I would pass in my finals given my track record. At that time, I truly believed that was true. No matter how hard I tried I never understood anything. I felt dumb, useless.

And then there was a small shift, I studied hard with tears in my eyes and fervent papers on my lips and finally I made it through my finals (even though it was just barely).

I don’t exactly remember when accountancy got easier, but today I am pursuing a career in it.

I realized that my success took time, but as long as a kept trying, even failures eventually give up. The joy you get after failing numerous times, not giving up and finally getting that win — It is just beyond what words can explain.

Daily writing prompt
How has a failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?

Impactful Start

“If mess had to be personified it would be me.”

I love how my life turned out (at least on most days). If anyone were to ask me how I made it in life the only answer I know is “I don’t know”.

An earlier prompt asked what would be the tittle of my autobiography. It seems these prompts are going to make me actually write the whole thing!

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Daily writing prompt
You’re writing your autobiography. What’s your opening sentence?

Failures

Not to be too cliche but it is true..

I am the kind of person who generally does not work hard for something. But sometimes I make that extra effort to get something I really want. I would plan and replan till it was just right. Then I would stay focused and strive hard but despite everything I failed.

Initially, I used to think that was the end and just give up. When I would see others achieve what I could not I would make myself smaller. I kept thinking that I could not do it cause I was not good enough.

However, one day I decided to fight after may failure. And I realized the second time around I was easily able to navigate the mistakes and though it took me a couple of times to actually win, I eventually did.

I realized that with every attempt I got better and faster. That was the turning point for me. I learnt to fight from then on. No matter how long it takes I will keep trying.

Like Edison said — “I have not failed, but found a 1000 ways how not to make one.”

What experiences in life helped you grow the most?

Love to Hate it

Do I love my “job”? It would depend on the day you ask me. I think everyone has those days where the stress of the job does not seem worth the pay of it.

When I think about it I love the “work” I do. I chose my career path and am excited about learning new things. However, I have a need to give 100% to anything I do and when I can’t do that, I tend to get upset. My parents have instilled in me to be sincere to the job that pays the bill and I always try I do my best. The job is not always about the “work” though, it includes navigating through people’s expectations, office politics and sometimes unfair situations. Most days you handle it but some days it just gets you and then the job feels like a burden.

For me, my job keeps me occupied and there is only so many days I can “relax”. As a added advantage if I am working I not worrying and I welcome that break. But, I want to be so much more than just my job. I want to do things which does not need me to be perfect it just requires me to make progress.

I have realized to enjoy my job, I need to find the balance of perfect at my job and learning to take things lighter when doing art or writing. I have made small efforts to balance out my life this year and it has made a difference. Little by little I will reach where I intend to.

Daily writing prompt
Do you enjoy your job?

It doesn’t matter

What advice would you give to your teenage self?

How complicated life seems during teenage years. It is the time when we start to understand the importance of society’s acceptance.

We leave the phase of enjoying every day with a carefree attitude to the “What will people think” attitude.

We fight every day with ourselves to be the perfect version we can be—just so we could be liked. We wanted people to be jealous of the perfection in our lives.

I did things that I hated just because they were what most people did. I tried so hard to fall into the required specifications to be part of the “cool” gang. And when I could not make it, I denigrated myself: “You are not trying hard enough.” “You are a loser.” “You don’t deserve to exist.” These thoughts occupied a permanent space in my head.

But now, in retrospect, it all feels so small. All the issues I faced—if I had the maturity I have today—I think I would have gotten through them unscathed.

The one thing I want to tell my old self is: “It doesn’t matter.” The people you think matter leave your life, the standards you had to meet change, and the measure of success is different. All I had to do was get through it forging my own path, because no matter what, to others you are doing everything wrong.

Just brush them off your shoulder, hold your head high, and keep on walking.

Recollections of the Past

When we are kids we always are busy. Always doing something or the other.

As a kid I loved collecting stamps and coins but with the relocating I lost some so I has to let it go. I loved writing down the lyrics to my favorite songs. I also made activity books by cutting up the crossword puzzles and comic strips from the newspaper. Oh and makeup! I think all kids at some put loved being a make up artist.

But there are some that I have continued doing or restarted recently. I still enjoying making small drawings once in a while or painting or some sort of art. The one consistent thing over the years has been writing and I am so glad I never let that go.

Daily writing prompt
Are there any activities or hobbies you’ve outgrown or lost interest in over time?

Sweet Tooth

I believe with all my heart that I like most kids loved all kinds of candy. As I grew up though I started to loose my interest of most kind of candies.

There are however a few of them that have continued to hold a place in my heart. Kit Kat is my forever favorite! I simply love the Hazelnut chocolate flavor. I know there are other chocolates with the same taste but those wafer covered chocolates will always be my first choice.

I also love the Heartbeat candies.. Especially the purple colored ones. I have not eaten them in a long time but I still have the memory of the taste and it is just amazing.

I am not sure it would be considered as a candy. But when talking about my favorite sweet food item, Loacker cube wafers cannot be excluded. I could eat a whole bag of it at one go. Even though now I don’t prefer having a lot of candies, I still I could binge eat them today.

All these are stuff I have been having since my childhood so I guess they are part of my core memories. I can just close my eyes and imagine their taste.

Daily writing prompt
What’s your favorite candy?