Demands of the Situation

Daily writing prompt
Are you a leader or a follower?

I think everyone starts off as a follower. I think in most cases I prefer to be the team member that supports the leader. Its very difficult being a leader. It requires thinking beyond and striving for the best for each team member.

As a follower, I definitely would not be the blind follower. I would want to help the leader and try to help reduce the burden on the leader as much as possible from my side. I like being the one with the flair. Being the follower, gives me the opportunity to do my best in the part allotted to me without worrying about the other’s part.

However, being a leader though stressful has it’s own advantages. I love bringing out the best in people. I especially love it when they are recognized for their efforts and appreciated for it. All the stress and pain managing the team seems worth it when I can stand back and watch them smile on their achievement. I take up the leader role when I feel its my responsibility to do so. It mostly happens when I am the eldest in the group. Other cases, I take up the role when I feel I can best lead the team. Rarely, the opposite team goads me into taking it. Push me and I come swinging!

Whichever role I take I want to give my best. Doesn’t matter as long as I can do the best for my team the role really does not matter to me.

My Favorite Fruits

Daily writing prompt
List your top 5 favorite fruits.

I am not much of fruits or vegetable person. I think my mind rejects any sort of healthy food. Despite this I do like some fruits:

a. Bananas
My mom made sure banana was part of my regular diet through out my childhood. She used to tell me that it gave me strong bones. So I used to eat it without much complain. I am glad she did. Though not as often as I would like, it is probably the only fruit that I eat without someone forcing me.

b. Apples
Another scam by my mother “Apple a day keeps the doctor away”. I may not have gone to the doctor for a lot of colds and flu. But keeping the doctor now that is another matter. I had multiple “accidents” through out my childhood. The number or times I have broken my bones exceed the number of bones my whole family have broken put all together. Needless to say, I was a kept my parents in a constant state of worry every time I step out of the house.

c. Grapes
Grapes are hands down my favorite! I love them! Green, Red, Black doesn’t matter. Its fun to eat just like popcorn. Just wash it well and eat. Also, the added fancy of it being part of many royal scene depictions. I used to love eating it directly from the bunch like I was a king.

d. Mango
I love eating them both raw and ripe. Raw mango with a little bit of chilli powder and salt make for a perfect snack. The blisters from it are totally worth it. On the other and ripe mango is like ice cream. Its just tasty! No more words needed.

e. Jackfruit
They are seasonal and I do not eat much of it. But it tastes so good. the hassle for cleaning it up is something that deters me. My father loves the fruit so he does all the cleaning all I have to do is sit beside him and patiently wait as he cleans. This fruit brings back happy memories. I remember me and my sister used to keep count to ensure that no one got more than their fair share.

Who all do I Name?

Daily writing prompt
Share a story about someone who had a positive impact on your life.

You meet over a million people in your lifetime. Most of the instances, they are just people who come into your life and leave without any impact. Some of them come into your life and tear you down. And if your lucky some of them come into your life to change it for the better.

There was a time in my life I did not know I was depressed. I just thought I was lazy and sad. It was God who helped me then. My faith brought me out of that mess. I still don’t know how I recovered.

In other instances, God sent me amazing friends in my life. They stood by me and started showing me that there was a part of that was beautiful. They showed me my worth. I can’t take compliments. It makes me feel weird. I feel like I don’t deserve it. However, these friends never gave up on me. They keep giving me reasons to smile, pulling me out of the darkness when I felt like I was drowning. Whenever I was down, they never asked questions, they just pulled me into a hug and stayed like that till I could breathe again.

If they ever read this, you know who you are. Thank you for being the amazing person you are! I hope all of you make more friends because I am sure you will definitely bring smiles to their life. In this world where most days are filled with tribulation, people need a break. They need someone who will stop time and be there and bring a little spark of joy into life.

Choice without Fear

Daily writing prompt
What does freedom mean to you?

To put “Freedom” simply it would be the opportunity to make your own choices without the fear of consequence.

Being free is to being in control. I mean on every second of your life. There shouldn’t be any other human that forces you into making a choice you do not want. I do not want to ever lower my eyes into submission. Every consequences of my life I face I want to to be completely because I decided it. I do not want to ever have that thought – “I should not have agreed to what they said.”

The choices can be anything. It can be how I dress, what I eat, when I choose to do something, how I choose to do it. This list goes on. I have seen a lot of documentaries where humans have experienced the treatment of being mere puppets. They were broken and shattered just for others fun. While I have never been subject to that kind of experience I think everyone experiences some degree of subjugation.

For example, I think most women even today have thoughts that limit them. When I want to wear a particular dress I should have the choice to wear it without having the thought of – “Will someone judge me?”. I should not be worried about how people perceive me. Neither should I be worried about – “Am I allowed to wear this?”.

Most people grow out of it and learn to stand up for themselves. The time that different people take to reach that level is different. I always encouraged and supported my friends to speak up for themselves. I am ashamed to admit it that when it came chance for me to speak up for myself… I failed. I had to take a lot of hits to my self esteem. It took every ounce of will power I had to break free. To this day, I struggle sometimes but I will never stop claiming my freedom.

Hope to all those with me, ahead of me and just starting in their journey to fight for their freedom. Its difficult but you will get there.

Its not the Who, Its the What

Daily writing prompt
What public figure do you disagree with the most?

I think that if you take out the who from the equation its the what that most people disagree with.

Whether a person be public or a person I know personally I think we would disagree about their opinions on a lot of things. Being in the public, their opinion is more known which in turn results in people voicing their opinions against it.

I am against the rich and poor disparity. Its horrible that on one side of the scale you have people wasting resources because they can afford to. On the other side of the scale, there are people who can’t even afford the required resources

I am against violence. People every where carry their own burden. I do not know what their burdens are, however, using violence just because you can is just not right. Hurting someone it just for “fun” is something that is beyond my comprehension.

I am against children being forced to “grow up”. Childhood is the most amazing period in your life. With the Grace of God, I was afforded to be a child for as long as I was a child. On the other hand, their are kids who are forced to grow up because their life circumstances forces them too. On the other hand, the children who are privileged are required to grow up because it is the “trend”.

I wish the world was a better place that every got their share of joy with sadness. I hope that everyone gets their victory along with their failures.

I Choose You!

Daily writing prompt
What was the last live performance you saw?

I think the first and only time we went for a live performance was when I was 8 or 9 years old.

The memory I quite vague but it was a live performance of Pokémon. I don’t remember much of the actual performance but I have blurry memories of the characters. I remember seeing Ash and Pikachu, and oddly, I remember Team Rocket in the “sky”.

I remember sitting in the park, which had an amphitheater area, I remember buying popcorn, and a ring that had flashing lights. But the most distinct memory I have is of the Pikachu balloon that my mom bought for me. It was those helium inflated Pikachu shaped ones, and I was thoroughly fascinated by it. I carried it around the home with me for the rest of the week. Wherever I went, my Pikachu came with me.

But, watching another live performance once in my life is on my bucket list of things to do before I die. Hopefully, sooner than later!

Pilot

Daily writing prompt
What’s a job you would like to do for just one day?

Being a Pilot was a dream that I had when I was a kid.

I used to keep looking at the skies fascinated by how humans fly. I have traveled a lot by plane, but being the person at the controls… now that is something else.

Of course, dreaming is one thing but consciously working towards it is another ball game all together. It takes a lot of dedication, discipline and time to touch the skies.

Over time my dreams have changed but if I could have the skills and the qualification I would love to fly a plane. Just one day would be enough!

If only I had the bank for it

Daily writing prompt
What are your favorite brands and why?

I think there is a general aura around branded goods. If its costly the quality is going to be top notch.

I think that had I grown up with that kind of money I probably would only prefer the branded items in all things. However, I have grown up in a middle class family and budget over brands was the rule. Why buy something branded when doing so would affect the overall monthly budget.

I will not say that I do not like branded items though. Who wouldn’t love a Louis Vuitton or a Prada bag? But like always I default to the use. If I use it too much the branded item would wear out soon and if I don’t use it what is the point!

Today, I buy items on how I would use it. The only time I buy something branded would be to commemorate a special achievement. And I follow the policy that if you buy something costly it better not be on credit. I try my best to save up for the item I have my eye on. By doing so one of three things happen.
One: I get to buy the item and the wait would be totally worth it.
Two: By the time I make the money for the item it goes out of the market and then I stew with regret for a couple of weeks vowing that next time I wont delay.
Or Three: I get over the desire to buy the branded item and end up adding the amount to my savings.

The ones who walked the path before me

Daily writing prompt
List the people you admire and look to for advice…

When we are self focused we seldom realize that there are people in this world who have walked the same path. What seems so difficult to us right now someone has already overcome it.

My Parents
It is very irritating when they start with the line “When we were young…”. However, whenever I am stuck in a decision my parents are my first source of advice. I may not always follow their advice but their perspective teaches me a different thought process than I could imagine.
There are times when I choose not to trouble my parents and make my own decisions. My parents keep watching me closely making sure they are there next to me the instant I need them. They never want me to fall, but they want to be there every time I need support to get back up.

My Sister
Some would find it odd why I chose to mention my sister separately. But she deserves the specific mention. She may not be very old to me but she has taken care of me at every stage. If it was up to her she would tie me up with a mattress and cushion so that nothing can harm me. “To harm her you need to cross over my dead body” – seems like a very cliché line in movies. My sister doesn’t need to say it, cause with her every action she shows it. She goes to the extent of saving me from myself. She doesn’t sugar coat her advice. If may not always like it but I know she says things out of love. I may not understand it an the very moment but eventually it all makes sense

My Mentors
At different stages of my life I meet with different people who guide me. Whether it be in school, college or at work. Each and every one of them have taught me something new. The most astonishing part of the whole thing is that they do so with so much humility. They know so much but yet they come down to my level to help me understand things. I admire those who can impart knowledge with such impact.

My Friends
I admire all my friends. I think I become friends with people because I am fascinated by their moral character. Some them are epitome of patience, some are so selfless, some of them are so self driven and motivated. All characteristics I seem to lack in. I turn to them for advice when sometimes I just want another perspective.

Do I even have one?

Daily writing prompt
What gives you direction in life?

I always feel adrift.

I hate questions of the future. It gives me anxiety. I don’t have an answer for it.

People say the more you grow older the more you figure out the answers to our questions. Ironically, the more you understand about reality the more you are clueless about it.

I have so many goals in life. Goals for my health, education, work, family. But on any given day if you ask me where do you see yourself in the future I go blank. I think it goes with the fact that I make great plans but when it comes to actually working on it I procrastinate.

But there has been on goal that has been in my life since I was old enough. To be a better Christian. I believe that if I keep that as a consistent goal in my life everything else will fall into place. Jesus gave me an example on how to be a good human despite the evils in the world. I hope that one day I can say that I am a better person than I was yesterday. If I can commit to the person who loves me the most, it makes sense that committing to the rest is going to be easy.

I hope that I learn to make Him my focus in life. I hope that He becomes my direction. And that every step I take in my life is towards His plan for my life.