A Night to Remember

If you could host a dinner and anyone you invite was sure to come, who would you invite?

If I could invite anyone to dinner….

On first thought, I think maybe I would want to invite my favourite artist or writer or celebrity. Then I think again I don’t have anything common with them. I might not like them.

Maybe I wanna invite my old friends or teachers, but then again what if they have changed from the last time I met them. Or what if they see changing me which they don’t like?

I think to myself, maybe I am being a little shallow, and I should probably just invite my family, the people I love. But I have dinner with them every day.

But then, I give it a little more thought. Do I really want to have dinner with someone specifically? No, not really. Just imagine the work it would take to make the dinner, set the table, make pleasant conversation, and the cleanup after!

If I were to ever have the opportunity to invite someone, and they could not refuse. I probably would want to go to an art gallery or a museum. This way I would enjoy the time and I would not have to stress about making the evening perfect.

Me

What do you think gets better with age?

A little too cliche? I could say something like wine or cheese or any other thing. However, I’ve come to realise that the best version of me is always the tomorrow version of me.

Throughout my life, I’ve always had someone trying to advise me or teach me what is right and wrong. They do it to protect me to not make the same mistakes they did, but I have come to realise that my mistakes are the ones that teach me the best.

I have fallen into the most worst situations after not listening to the advice of my elders and notice that I end up, making the same mistakes over and over again. Till I finally draw the line myself,

I have learnt to work hard, even when everything feels like it’s crashing down on me. I have learnt not to hurt others just because I am hurting, I learnt that some days are filled with hopelessness, but you still keep fighting for that one day or one moment of happiness.

I think time has taught me to accept and move on. It has taught me that today is wrong, may just be tomorrow’s right.

I am grateful for what the years have taught me, and I am grateful for the years I may have left. I hope that everyone hold on and get to see the better version of themselves like I have.

Whenever Possible

What time do you go to bed and wake up currently?

I wish I could say that I have a proper sleep regiment. However, like most adults I sleep when I have the time to sleep.

When I was a kid, I remember crying and throwing a tantrum any time, my parents told me that it was time to sleep. Little did I know that when I grow up sleep would be the one thing that I crave the most.

During university days, late night parties, and midnight plans was something that was considered ritual. But now that I have started working and the reality of life has hit me, even when I am exhausted. I sometimes end up, sacrificing sleep to study or work.

I did try to stick to schedule where I woke up early and went to bed early, but that lasted about two weeks, so now I do not look at the clock anymore, the moment I feel drowsy, I whatever it is that I am working on and go to sleep.

And to wake up like most independent individuals, I keep about 8 to 10 alarms, which I snooze over 10 to 15 times before finally giving up and waking up to my day.

Absolutely Nothing

Being a pessimistic person really puts a dent in being excited about the future.

I want big things in the future but the focus and determination to achieve it often fades away after a few hours.

Since I don’t make the effort it obvious enough that I won’t actually reach my goals. I always think if I make all the effort and fail I would be upset more so instead I procrastinate.

I am learning to be hopeful again about my future and maybe soon I will also learn to be excited about it as well. 😊

What are you most excited about for the future?

When the clock strikes 12

I think that night owls can relate to me.

I am most productive when everyone is asleep. I feel the quiet of the night makes me more focused on what I am doing.

I do feel sleepy at 10 pm but when I push through that sleep I can keep on working till dawn. Time passing doesn’t even come to mind. Only when my house wakes up again in the morning do I realize that I have skipped bed time all together.

When do you feel most productive?

Draw

There are many things that I do to unwind.

Sometimes I like to draw up a warm bath and read a nice book. Or maybe just order in food and put on a K-drama on TV and binge watch till I fall asleep.

But the best thing I like to do is to draw. I love any sort of art. It disconnects me from the world and makes me just happy.

How do you unwind after a demanding day?

Leaving Toxic people is Good

Forever, I had think innate need to hold on to people. I felt that I needed to be there for them. Little did I know how much that would affect me.

I was taught that you do not abandon people when they are in a bad situation. For a long long time I maintained that and fought hard. I kept thinking to myself that the person that I was standing by would realize my commitment to them and reciprocate at least a portion of it.

But like they say, the stronger you try to hold on to things the more it hurts. I kept hoping and waiting and at the end of the day all I got was humiliation and loneliness.

It hurts like crazy when you have to walk away from someone and you regret it immediately. But if you hold true and stay away, it almost like a shroud slips away and everything seems a much better.

You finally realize how easy breathing can be when you not burdened by the overthinking. Slowly and gradually you realize and accept that sometimes walking away is really the best thing you did for yourself.

Daily writing prompt
Describe a decision you made in the past that helped you learn or grow.

A Volcano

I know there are a few inactive volcanos in the world which would cause no harm to humans. However, why take a chance!

All the science experiments aside, the thought of molten lava and poisonous smoke spewing out from a crevice in the earth, it terrifies me.

I have a strong feeling that I would not be able to out run it. So no thank you! I am staying as far a possible from such situations.

Daily writing prompt
What place in the world do you never want to visit? Why?

Seldom Recognized

My family always does things for me. I think most families do, but it tends to go unnoticed because we take things for granted.

As a kid, I remember my sister not opening a packet of chips or a bar of chocolate till I was home. My father carried me on his shoulders despite being exhausted himself. My mother gave me kisses before she left for work even when she thought I was sleeping.

After growing up, I remember my sister standing up to my father when he said hurtful things to me. My mother gave a warm huge when I was going through a bout of depression (even though she did not know it. At least I think she didn’t). My father buys me spicy food when I am down with cold even when I don’t ask for it.

So there you go, I really can’t say just one isolated incident, there are multiple scenarios scattered over my whole lifetime. Family can be a handful at times but I am thankful that I have them.

Daily writing prompt
Describe a positive thing a family member has done for you.

Exercise of the Mind

Given that I am generally a very lazy person, I do not do much of physical exercise.

The one thing I love doing is exercising my mind! I love learning new things! Learning something new always makes me happy and excited. Now, let’s be completely honest, the excitement is there in the initial days and usually tappers down after that, but nonetheless, I prefer it to exercising!

Whenever I do exercise, I prefer to dance. And no, I am not a good dancer. I wish I were but I am not. I did go for dance classes for 6 years but all I can do is be a background dancer. I have no sort of aura a dancer should have. On the other hand, using it as a means to add some sort of activity in my life seems like a good option.

Daily writing prompt
What’s the most fun way to exercise?