Innocence

What brings a tear of joy to your eye?

Who doesn’t smile seeing a baby making funny faces. The instant happiness you get seeing a child opening a gift. A little girl baking for her parents birthday and ending up as a flour covered doll. A child dancing in the rain without a care of the world.

For me, seeing the innocence in and other humans, bring an automatic smile to my face.

The world today is a cruel place. There is no place for innocence anymore.

Everyone is forced to grow up soon. Everywhere you turn it feels like the world is just filled with hatred and evil. We no longer see the good in the world. All we do is live in the constant fear of being harmed

Seeing someone being able to appreciate and enjoy the little joy of life brings a tear to my eyes. I wish that the world was little bit nicer so that we could hold onto our innocence, a little bit longer.

Every memory that we make would not be tainted with the fear of what could go wrong, but with just pure emotions of happiness. I wish we could be children again without the fear that knowing this world brings.

Journaling ideas

What was the last thing you searched for online? Why were you looking for it?

I love stationary, and I seem to have a bit of a problem. I keep buying new notebooks and pens and markers, but never actually use them.

As a part of my New Year resolution, I decided that I am going to use the stationary that I’ve already purchased and overcome the irrational fear that I might not get it again. 

All of my recent searches have been of journal ideas to fill out the blank books lying around. I hope that one day soon I can have ideas without requiring the help of a Pinterest board.

A place to call my own

Tell us about the last thing you got excited about.

I am the youngest daughter to my parents. Being the youngest child, I was never left alone that does not go to say that I’m not independent. It just means that there was never a circumstance where I had to be the only person making the decision.

This may not be the last thing I got excited about this definitely is the most significant thing that I got excited about the first time I got to live alone. I had always dreamt of having my own home or a tiny apartment where I could do everything according to my vision.

The first time I stepped into my new home, I felt immense joy and pride. For rhe next few months, whether it be a new rug, or utensils for the kitchen or table cloth for the dinner table. it felt amazing to have that sort of freedom in making the choices that was right for me. I did not have to hide my journals or my artwork in the fear of being judged.

My home, actually reflected what I was, and seeing that made me happy.

Naturally Beautiful

How would you design the city of the future?

Given that I have no architecture knowledge, I would choose to refrain from designing a city for the future. I would rather someone who would be able to build a city without harming nature. I do not know the exact word for it, but it could be “sustainable architecture”.

One or the other day, we share how nature is claiming back the land. We humans have made things without the thought of how it harms others and now we pay the price.

Maybe this is not something that would be constituted as a design, but I want proper road markers. I don’t do well with phone directions and maybe proper markers that I can actually spot in the map might help.

In conclusion, I would want to build a beautiful city that preserves the beauty of the nature that it was built in.

Happy

What positive emotion do you feel most often?

Saying that happiness is the most often emotion or more like positive emotion that I have may seem like a lie.

As a person who is living with depression, most days, I wake up weak and tired and just frustrated with life. However, when I see my mother gaze fondly at her grandchildren in that moment, I am happy. She had to leave my sister and me back in our hometown with our grandparents when we were babies because she couldn’t afford to take us along with her. She missed our childhood, but I’m glad that she gets to see the childhood of her grandchildren at least.

When I see the joy in my sisters eye, every time she shares with us, her achievement, her individual achievement, it makes me happy. She has gone through a lot to finally find something of a room and that she found it. It makes me feel like she can start to be happy for herself.

When I see my father bring back a fruit or a vegetable from his home garden and I see the pride with which she brings it. It makes me happy. He loves agriculture, and when he was healthier and younger, I think she dreamt of going back home and having a land filled with beautiful trees and plants. He gave it up because he had to provide for his family. It may not be a lot, but the small area in which he has planted the few household vegetables and fruits is cherished as a testament to his passion.

I think no matter how sad I am as long as my family is happy. That is a good memory for me. That is happiness for me. I wish I could be the reason for that happiness. Just like they are for me.

So to conclude, I stop focusing on myself, the emotion that I feel the most is happy.

Me

What do you think gets better with age?

A little too cliche? I could say something like wine or cheese or any other thing. However, I’ve come to realise that the best version of me is always the tomorrow version of me.

Throughout my life, I’ve always had someone trying to advise me or teach me what is right and wrong. They do it to protect me to not make the same mistakes they did, but I have come to realise that my mistakes are the ones that teach me the best.

I have fallen into the most worst situations after not listening to the advice of my elders and notice that I end up, making the same mistakes over and over again. Till I finally draw the line myself,

I have learnt to work hard, even when everything feels like it’s crashing down on me. I have learnt not to hurt others just because I am hurting, I learnt that some days are filled with hopelessness, but you still keep fighting for that one day or one moment of happiness.

I think time has taught me to accept and move on. It has taught me that today is wrong, may just be tomorrow’s right.

I am grateful for what the years have taught me, and I am grateful for the years I may have left. I hope that everyone hold on and get to see the better version of themselves like I have.

A Few Words of Comfort

Many times in life I see people who seem to be lost in thoughts their face filled with worry and grief.

I used to walk past them with hesitant steps. I really wanted to talk talk to them, to give then a ear. I was never sure how to approach them and I had the constant fear “What if I say the wrong thing”.

Today however, I take the chance, I ask them if they need to talk or if everything is okay. I think if everyone took the time, to ask how others are doing even when they are unsure it makes a huge difference.

Daily writing prompt
Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?

Rainy Day Compliment

I always walk to office. It’s too close to take a cab but the uneven terrain makes it more hard than it would have been on level ground.

I always try to leave office before it turns dark so I have the daylight with me. In my locality, people usually don’t smile, everyone keeps moving with a purpose. I quickly adapted to that lifestyle, I put headphones on my ear, my hoodie over my head and eyes on the distance I need to cover.

But one day on the way back to home, the small drizzle decide to become a heavy rain. I was too far from my office to make my way back and I was too stubborn to take cover till it slowed down. So, I kept walking and then out of the blue a stranger at the bus stop yelled “Hey beautiful! Whatever you are fighting for you will make it! Keep Hustling!”

I don’t even remember her face given that the rain drops were in my eyes but it made me smile. I yelled back “Thank you!” not just for the compliment but for giving me a little more strength to carry through life.

Whoever you are, if you ever read this post, Thank you for giving me a happy memory. It took you a couple of seconds, but you made it into my core memories.

Daily writing prompt
Describe a random encounter with a stranger that stuck out positively to you.

If Autumn had Snow..

I love the cold! I love the winter and I love the snow! Yes, there are the downsides to it but it is totally worth it.

However, it is me, I would never have a straight forward answer to a question and have a similar conundrum for this question as well. I love Autumn too. I love the skies, the falling leaves, the soft breeze that weather brings. I am not sure if it ever happens in nature, but if I could have a weather that combines all the aesthetics of autumn but also has the added bonus of snow, I guess then I have a definitive answer.

I think I have romanticized the concept of autumn in my mind so much, just a fallen leaf on the ground makes me happy. And snow is snow! It reminds me of a happier time! So I love both of those weathers equally and so I am not going to make a choice. 🙂

Daily writing prompt
What is your favorite type of weather?

You make me Smile

I should probably have something more note worthy as the best compliment. But compliments make me feel weird. Making someone smile, is probably the only compliment in my lifetime that I have accepted whole heartedly.

All other compliments that I have received makes me feel small because I know for a fact that someone is doing things better that me. I just lucked out and was noticed. I am good at something because someone better took their time to teach me, to make me worthy of that appreciation. Given that, the person who should be appreciated should be the one who taught me. And I am whole-hearted thankful to all the teachers in my life — my parents and sister, my school teachers, professors, my friends, my colleagues etc.

On the other hand, I feel that making someone smile is not something that can be taught, its inherent. And the fact that someone is happier, even just for a minute, because of me makes me happy. Wouldn’t you say a compliment is worth when the person giving it and the one receiving it appreciates it?

Daily writing prompt
What was the best compliment you’ve received?