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Daily writing prompt
What sacrifices have you made in life?

This prompt is something you really need to think about. My instant thought when I think of sacrifice is all the things that I had to give up in life. When I had to walk past a toy that I really wanted because it was too costly. When I had to give away my gifts because my cousins had lesser. When I had to give up my dream degree because my parents didn’t want to be alone.

But now that I have taken a minute, they were never sacrifices. They were choices that I had to make with age. After you grow up these childhood “sacrifices” you realize were just things that you had to let go. It was about choosing between two things. I was not giving up anything for anybody.

Sacrifice is when my parents gave up on pursuing their education to save up for my future education. They gave up their health because check ups “costly” or “not required”. The real reason was they wanted to provide for the family even if it meant that they become sicker. Even when they were tired and exhausted just one whine from me and they would carry me in their arms.

Sacrifice is what my sister did. When we were children, she always gave the bigger piece of the chocolate she loved. She is immensely talented. However, when there was a school program she never gave her name because my parents could not afford paying for us both. She didn’t pursue her career dream because that meant that I could not afford to have a dream.

But the biggest sacrifice of all is what Jesus did for me. We do not like when we get punishment when we do something wrong. He was punished when he did nothing wrong. He took that punishment without a word of protest so I could be guilt free. He gave His life for me so I could have life. When sins closed my way to God He broke down the walls to pull me closer.

Sacrifices are those that can never be paid back. All I can hope is be worthy of the sacrifices made for me. Maybe one day when I does come to me I also am willing to sacrifice for the people I love.

My Cross Pendant

Daily writing prompt
What’s the oldest things you’re wearing today?

I have a lot older things but they are safely kept in my box of memories.

The only item I do wear everyday is my cross pendant that my mother gifted me. Over the years I have changed the chains multiple times. However, I always add my pendant to the new chain.

I love wearing the cross its the first thing my mother bought for me after a long time. Not as a birthday gift or a gift for an occasion. She just randomly came up to me one day and gave me the box with the pendant. It isn’t anything fancy or over the top. But the worth it holds for me is far beyond words.

My cross is the constant reminder that I am never alone. If ever I am stressed I automatically touch the cross and I remember that God is always with me. I hope that I can keep the cross with me as long as I am alive and maybe pass it along as a heirloom.

My Favorite Fruits

Daily writing prompt
List your top 5 favorite fruits.

I am not much of fruits or vegetable person. I think my mind rejects any sort of healthy food. Despite this I do like some fruits:

a. Bananas
My mom made sure banana was part of my regular diet through out my childhood. She used to tell me that it gave me strong bones. So I used to eat it without much complain. I am glad she did. Though not as often as I would like, it is probably the only fruit that I eat without someone forcing me.

b. Apples
Another scam by my mother “Apple a day keeps the doctor away”. I may not have gone to the doctor for a lot of colds and flu. But keeping the doctor now that is another matter. I had multiple “accidents” through out my childhood. The number or times I have broken my bones exceed the number of bones my whole family have broken put all together. Needless to say, I was a kept my parents in a constant state of worry every time I step out of the house.

c. Grapes
Grapes are hands down my favorite! I love them! Green, Red, Black doesn’t matter. Its fun to eat just like popcorn. Just wash it well and eat. Also, the added fancy of it being part of many royal scene depictions. I used to love eating it directly from the bunch like I was a king.

d. Mango
I love eating them both raw and ripe. Raw mango with a little bit of chilli powder and salt make for a perfect snack. The blisters from it are totally worth it. On the other and ripe mango is like ice cream. Its just tasty! No more words needed.

e. Jackfruit
They are seasonal and I do not eat much of it. But it tastes so good. the hassle for cleaning it up is something that deters me. My father loves the fruit so he does all the cleaning all I have to do is sit beside him and patiently wait as he cleans. This fruit brings back happy memories. I remember me and my sister used to keep count to ensure that no one got more than their fair share.

The Big Picture

Daily writing prompt
What is your career plan?

Where do you see yourself in 5 years? The standard question that was asked in all my interviews. I absolutely hate it!

I mean I could give a shocking answer like: “Who knows! Maybe in the afterlife!” but I never did give that. I gave the standard I hope to reach a management position. If only reality was that easy.

To be truthful, I have a good career now. I do not know if I will be able to continue in this career given that the world keeps changing around me. But one thing I do want to do is maybe be good enough to teach the next person the job. I want to make things easier for the next person in my shoes and hopefully end up with a career when doing that.

Who has seen tomorrow, I have today and the only thing I have for tomorrow is hope.

I Choose You!

Daily writing prompt
What was the last live performance you saw?

I think the first and only time we went for a live performance was when I was 8 or 9 years old.

The memory I quite vague but it was a live performance of Pokémon. I don’t remember much of the actual performance but I have blurry memories of the characters. I remember seeing Ash and Pikachu, and oddly, I remember Team Rocket in the “sky”.

I remember sitting in the park, which had an amphitheater area, I remember buying popcorn, and a ring that had flashing lights. But the most distinct memory I have is of the Pikachu balloon that my mom bought for me. It was those helium inflated Pikachu shaped ones, and I was thoroughly fascinated by it. I carried it around the home with me for the rest of the week. Wherever I went, my Pikachu came with me.

But, watching another live performance once in my life is on my bucket list of things to do before I die. Hopefully, sooner than later!

I could do More

Daily writing prompt
What do you do to be involved in the community?

I am not a very contributing community member. However, I do like to participate in community events whenever possible.

I was able to be a part of the “Make the city beautiful” event organized by a NGO in which we cleaned and painted neglected public spaces. It was a long day’s work but the result was truly amazing. the once foul smelling place now looked beautiful.

In another instance we got to spend time with kids, we played hide and seek, charades, Pictionary. We also played football or more like we managed. The kids were amazing in all the games. Though I did not speak the same language I loved listening to all their stories. We also helped them with their schoolwork. At the end of the day, nobody wanted to leave but we did end up leaving with hearts filled with happiness.

I hope that in the future I can contribute more to my society and join more community events.

If only I had the bank for it

Daily writing prompt
What are your favorite brands and why?

I think there is a general aura around branded goods. If its costly the quality is going to be top notch.

I think that had I grown up with that kind of money I probably would only prefer the branded items in all things. However, I have grown up in a middle class family and budget over brands was the rule. Why buy something branded when doing so would affect the overall monthly budget.

I will not say that I do not like branded items though. Who wouldn’t love a Louis Vuitton or a Prada bag? But like always I default to the use. If I use it too much the branded item would wear out soon and if I don’t use it what is the point!

Today, I buy items on how I would use it. The only time I buy something branded would be to commemorate a special achievement. And I follow the policy that if you buy something costly it better not be on credit. I try my best to save up for the item I have my eye on. By doing so one of three things happen.
One: I get to buy the item and the wait would be totally worth it.
Two: By the time I make the money for the item it goes out of the market and then I stew with regret for a couple of weeks vowing that next time I wont delay.
Or Three: I get over the desire to buy the branded item and end up adding the amount to my savings.

The ones who walked the path before me

Daily writing prompt
List the people you admire and look to for advice…

When we are self focused we seldom realize that there are people in this world who have walked the same path. What seems so difficult to us right now someone has already overcome it.

My Parents
It is very irritating when they start with the line “When we were young…”. However, whenever I am stuck in a decision my parents are my first source of advice. I may not always follow their advice but their perspective teaches me a different thought process than I could imagine.
There are times when I choose not to trouble my parents and make my own decisions. My parents keep watching me closely making sure they are there next to me the instant I need them. They never want me to fall, but they want to be there every time I need support to get back up.

My Sister
Some would find it odd why I chose to mention my sister separately. But she deserves the specific mention. She may not be very old to me but she has taken care of me at every stage. If it was up to her she would tie me up with a mattress and cushion so that nothing can harm me. “To harm her you need to cross over my dead body” – seems like a very cliché line in movies. My sister doesn’t need to say it, cause with her every action she shows it. She goes to the extent of saving me from myself. She doesn’t sugar coat her advice. If may not always like it but I know she says things out of love. I may not understand it an the very moment but eventually it all makes sense

My Mentors
At different stages of my life I meet with different people who guide me. Whether it be in school, college or at work. Each and every one of them have taught me something new. The most astonishing part of the whole thing is that they do so with so much humility. They know so much but yet they come down to my level to help me understand things. I admire those who can impart knowledge with such impact.

My Friends
I admire all my friends. I think I become friends with people because I am fascinated by their moral character. Some them are epitome of patience, some are so selfless, some of them are so self driven and motivated. All characteristics I seem to lack in. I turn to them for advice when sometimes I just want another perspective.

Do I even have one?

Daily writing prompt
What gives you direction in life?

I always feel adrift.

I hate questions of the future. It gives me anxiety. I don’t have an answer for it.

People say the more you grow older the more you figure out the answers to our questions. Ironically, the more you understand about reality the more you are clueless about it.

I have so many goals in life. Goals for my health, education, work, family. But on any given day if you ask me where do you see yourself in the future I go blank. I think it goes with the fact that I make great plans but when it comes to actually working on it I procrastinate.

But there has been on goal that has been in my life since I was old enough. To be a better Christian. I believe that if I keep that as a consistent goal in my life everything else will fall into place. Jesus gave me an example on how to be a good human despite the evils in the world. I hope that one day I can say that I am a better person than I was yesterday. If I can commit to the person who loves me the most, it makes sense that committing to the rest is going to be easy.

I hope that I learn to make Him my focus in life. I hope that He becomes my direction. And that every step I take in my life is towards His plan for my life.

Christmas

Daily writing prompt
What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?

Without a doubt Christmas is my most favorite holiday of the year and also the most waited!

We may have a million different problems in our life that weigh us down. But when Christmas comes around we forget about all that pain and hurt that the year brought us. We come together as a family and enjoy every minute of the joy we share together.

We bake cake and cookies. Often ending with baking fails of raw cake and burnt cookies. We decorate the Christmas tree and our home. Often spending more time in debating how the decoration should look like rather than actually getting the decoration done.

But the best of all we spend hours talking and listening to each other. And just like that you get the strength to fight for one more year.