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Day 12: Changing Directions

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I feel tired today. I feel drained. I did not do anything today. Literally nothing.

I just want to be done with this one issue of my life. Its like a stone weighing me down. I can’t move. I feel like I am stuck in place and everyone is moving forward.

However, there is some part of me that thinks that I have been using this one problem as a reason for being lazy. I blamed all my failures to it. Now that I am finally reaching the end of that problem what if I still don’t move forward. What if I still lazy around and take things for granted.

I need to find something to anchor me. A reason to push forward. Something to hope for. I don’t know. Some part of me is scared to even hope. I don’t know if I can take failures. The only person who can help me through this spiral is Jesus. Praying to God that he gives me the strength to overcome this wild storm in my mind.

I made it one more day. One day at a time, breathe, pray, and repeat. It might not seem like a big achievement but it is something.

Unsure Start

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Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.
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Through out school and university I was a average student. I was the kind of person that is easily forgettable. I preferred it that way.

I thought my first day at my job also would be no different. I thought I would be the person in the corner of the room that just gets by. Never knew that 1st day would be the turning point for me.

I have no idea how I got noticed. For the first time in my life I gave up my inhibition and asked questions. I wanted to know how to do my job so I asked about anything that came to my mind. I did not know anyone in the room, so it was easier. I knew that even if the people judged me, they were strangers.

I think the silly questions I asked lightened the mood of the boring training. For the first time in my life I emerged from my shell and interacted with people. I am really thankful for that experience. It was the day that changed the trajectory of the rest of my life and I will always be thankful for it.

Day 11: Old Memories and New Perspectives

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I did not realize how much of me I had lost! Everyday its like my fogged memories are clearing. I am starting to smile more. I never knew that I had started giving up on pieces of me. I started making my world smaller. I think I hoped the smaller my world the lesser I would hurt. It is like I am claiming myself back. Little my little.

On a lighter note, I did listen to a couple of shorts audio stories. It was like a blast from the past. It had been years since I read a book or even heard an audio book. Also, lets be real, I had a spout of impulse purchase today. I need to stop it. I need to start using the stuff I buy. I am going to start by restricting myself to an amount for the month. Hopefully, over time i can reduce the budget until finally I buy stuff only when I actually need it.

All in all cheers to a good day!

None at All

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What are your favorite physical activities or exercises?
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I could easily list physical activities like hiking or skipping, but the truth is that I only do them when I am forced into it, not because I genuinely enjoy them.

I do like walking in silence with my headphones on. However, more than the walking I enjoy the peace and calm of the walk. No chatter of people, no chatter in my brain just being one with nature. I guess that walking is a sort of meditation for me rather than exercise.

Sports or exercise have never appealed to me. I am, at heart, a house mouse. All my hobbies can be done within the confines of my four walls. I am aware of the importance of exercise for my health, so I make the effort— out of necessity.

Maybe someday soon I will adopt a hobby that drag me to the outside. Things can change you never know.

Day 10: My Day Out

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Today was the first time in months that I went alone somewhere. The pain in my leg always made me unsure. I was scared that I might end up falling down and unable to get up.

I choose not to leave the confines of my home and stayed constricted to my room. Probably one of the reason that contributed to my negative thoughts. It was like a vicious cycle, I was upset because I could not move. I stayed inside the house because I could not move. Again, I would be upset because I could not go outside.

It was a good time! Though we could not spend together as much time I we hoped we could it was nice to finally meet my close friends. Seeing them after so long really put a smile to my face.

Showing Respect

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What is something others do that sparks your admiration?
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I feel that respecting people in any circumstance is something not everyone can do.

I often find it difficult to stay respectful when people annoy me. When I get angry I often cross the limits of respect. Afterwards, most certainly, I would regret my behavior.

Over the years, I have realized I am in awe of people who show respect regardless of how others behave. They are able to clarify their side without losing their patience.

I hope that one day I can be better. I want to learn how to respect others even in times when I don’t want to.

Day 9: Not a Productive Day

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Feels like I am slowly falling back to my old habits. I just want to sleep all day.

It always starts with being lethargic. Then I slowly stop doing things and start wanting to just relax the whole day. Today I thought to myself, its okay if I miss one day it’s okay. I can continue tomorrow.

So I am definitely stretching myself to make that extra effort. I really want to know how do people stay motivated. The people who plan ahead of time how do you do it? And how do you stick to your plan.

I have made plans with my friends tomorrow. It is the first time I am going out alone in months. Here’s to hoping to have a good day.

Today was a day of zoning out. tomorrow I will do better. I have to. I just have to.

Day 8: Good Day

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Today was a good day!

It was not because I was not it pain or that everything in my life is perfect. But today was good.

I spent the whole day with my family. We sat together all morning and just talked. Random things. Anything below the sun. We had food together and just chilled.

In the afternoon, we went for a movie. We watched an animated movie and guess what my parents actually sat through the whole movie. I was shocked. Never expected my parents to sit through an animation movie. Well I guess, when you become grand parents you will do everything for your grand kids.

I started watching the movie but somewhere in between I drifted to sleep. The reclining seat, the cool theater and the warm blanket was the conducive environment for the sandman to visit.

I did struggle to walk the distance and climb the stairs but at the end all I remember was the happy moments of the day.

Thank you God for today!

Almost Anything

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What’s your favorite cartoon?
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I don’t know why, but the older I get, the more I enjoy watching cartoons.

I like almost any type of cartoon, as long as there aren’t any disgusting bugs that make me want to puke. Other than that, any cartoon that can distract me from the everyday mess I call life is something I truly appreciate and love.

My forever favorite is Tom and Jerry. I adore everything about it—the hilarious dynamic between the cat and the mouse, the clever comedy, and the timeless charm. As a child, I loved it mainly for the humor. But as an adult, I’ve come to appreciate the unlikely friendship it portrays. Despite their differences, the constant fights, and society’s expectation of enmity between a cat and a mouse, Tom and Jerry remain friends. That bond always brings a smile to my face, and I absolutely love it.

And yes, it’s definitely time for a Tom and Jerry binge-watching day!

Day 7: The Turning point

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Today was probably the turning point in my life—the one I had been waiting for. I have nothing holding me back anymore. Now, if I don’t take steps in the right direction, I will have only myself to blame.

Step by step, I am going to push myself to look at the bright side. Even on days when it feels incredibly hard, I will try. I am determined to create a purpose in my life—something worth living for.

To begin, I want to make a bucket list. I used to wonder what the point of it was. I kept thinking that I didn’t deserve happiness, that I had no right to be happy because I wasn’t perfect.

But you know what? It doesn’t matter. Happiness isn’t about whether you deserve it or not. Happiness is found in those moments that help us overcome the sad ones. I am going to embrace every happy moment life offers me, and I will be grateful for each one.

Cheers to a day of clarity!