Brewing Recipes

I really love watching cooking shows and food shows on TV. I enjoy listening to the innovative food recipes the people on these shows come up with. However, I do not have a good taste palate.

I may not understand the different taste profiles but I love cooking food though. I think prefer cooking anything non-vegetarian. I love trying new recipes and making food that my wants.

But the meal that I love making the most is “Fried chicken”. It’s what Minny Jackson said on The Help – “Frying chicken make you tend to feel better about life”.

It took time.. trying many recipes from online. To finally figure out the recipes that made the chicken skin crispy while being cooked all the way through and mostly importantly without it getting it burnt.

With the fried chicken I also love to make potato cheese balls and toasted garlic bread. The combination it just heavenly. It’s my description of comfort food. And when I make them everyone in the family eats them with relish. The family that usually runs in different directions when it comes to favorite cuisine always comes together to enjoy it.

I also love baking. I bake cookies, cakes, biscuits anything with chocolate in it. Yet again, though I love only dark chocolate I love making chocolate goodies for my nephews.

Hopefully, in the future I can learn to appreciate all kinds of cuisine and also learn to make it.

Daily writing prompt
What’s your favorite thing to cook?

Seems Ages Ago

Computers were a luxury once upon a time. A magic machine that did things that were so so unimaginable.

My father bought the first computer home when I was 12 years old. I remember him carrying all the way from the store back home. When he reached home he was all sweaty and exhausted. I remember seeing the smile on his face. My sister and I never asked for it but that he got it for us made is even more special.

My father connected it and switched it on. It took quite sometime to boot. The screen opened to Windows 2000 which at that time was a big leap from the earlier Windows 98. I remember the Viewsonic monitor with the little birds logo at the corner of the screen. Always thought it was lovebirds guess they were actually something else.

The computer was so bulky back then. The CPU was a huge box of metal and the heat it emitted was something else. The monitor took up half the study table. We bought a computer table because there was no space for the keyboard and the mouse. All of which was wired to the back of the CPU. Oh and the mouse! there was a trackball for the mouse. We had to regularly open the mouse up and clean the dust off for the mouse to keep scrolling properly. The keyboard was so hard each key was like a stone against the fingers.

I remember the time it took to download a single music file. Watching a video was out of the question I doubt that Youtube was even launched. They are such vague memories. I really can’t believe it those memories have become so insignificant but for my child heart they were so important.

We were so mesmerized by the machine. We did have computers at our school but to have one at home was absolutely the best. My father may not have provide the luxuries in life but he give me everything I need sometimes at the cost of his own happiness. My mother loved watching her children adore their father.

I don’t remember much about the computer as such but I remember the memories associated with it. At that age I may not have appreciated what was done for me but I am glad that I realize it now. I am extremely grateful to my parents for teaching me the value of hard work. It has allowed me to truly understand the sacrifice they have made for me over the years.

Daily writing prompt
Write about your first computer.

Making a Habit

I am a serial procrastinator. I sometimes astonish myself at the level of laziness I have. I can go days achieving absolutely nothing in life. It’s not because I don’t have goals for myself. I do. I noticed that the fervor that I have when I am in a particular moment does not replicate when the time to actually works towards it comes around.

I accounted everything to laziness and that everything in life came to me easy and that I did not want to strive for it. But then like most non medical professionals I sought to find my answers on the internet.

Apparently, procrastination is a disruptive mental health issue. I don’t have a great general knowledge but sometimes I like reading about certain topics. So, I researched a little further to understand the cause and how to get better. My experience with depression has made me realize that you may not be able to avoid situations completely but you can always manage the impact of it.

There were few things that I could relate to with the causes : Perfectionism and Disconnection from the Future.

I needed things to be just right. It can’t be done as “Not so bad”. It has to be of the level that it garners appreciation on the efforts. So, when I did not meet my expectations I gave up. 

Future, Hopes and Dreams. I had given up on it all. I felt that there was no point. I had nothing worth fighting for.

Today, I am trying again. I am going to make good habits of things I want to get done. I need to force myself to do it every day till my body learns that it needs to do it. Hopefully, soon I will make constant steady seps to my goals.
I have completed month 1 of writing my blog and learning a new language. Hopefully, by the end of this year I will have a set of 10 to 12 habits than will bring me closer to my goals.

Breathe Again

Since I have missed on a couple of the daily prompts guess now onwards will be the challenge to continue writing everyday.

It seemed appropriate to start with why I started the blog. Initially, it was just about a social media presence. I restarted my blog when I had a complete reset. I realized that though in daily life I am quiet silent I had a lot to say. I chose to stay alone because I felt that no one could understand me. Then, I started writing poems as a way to manage my emotions, fear.. Sometimes when I read them over I feel that those words have absorbed the pain.

I hope that maybe someone out there can read and realize that suffocating feeling happens to many. And most of them if not all choose to bear it in silence so that the people they love don’t feel their pain.

I hope that my little insignificant blog would help them to remember to keep breathing. It may hurt bad for sometime but slowly you learn to find a way to smile despite that. You don’t bury the pain away, but rather acknowledge it. You learn to breathe again!

Certificates to be stored away

I have gone to a business school and personally I don’t think it added to my professional capability in any way. I took a break from school to work and earn enough to go to college hoping that once I have a degree it would make me better at my job.

Fast forward, after completing my graduation and working for some years, I figured out that it was never about what was taught in the four walls of the lecture hall or the high GPA. It was always about how you as an individual figured things out. I apply about 5 % of what I learnt at my workplace. Everything else that I do is about trial and error.

My parents say a child never knows the flame can burn unless they actually touch it and feel the heat. Experiences is what makes one successful. I am extremely thankful for my experiences that has helped me grow.

I have learnt that some days even when you are right you would have to wait to be right. I learnt that anyone can have an education but only few get knowledge. I learnt that sometimes working in silence is the most offensive response you can give. And most importantly. that knowledge has to be shared without the fear of someone getting ahead.

As far as my degrees go, they are locked away somewhere in the bottom drawer of my cabinet. They gather dust and age serving as reminders that how the importance of certain things keep changing over time.

So, to all the students out there get your degrees, you may not come in first in college and that is okay. A degree does not define you, your personality and attitude does and you should never forget to build and improve on that.

Bloganuary writing prompt
What colleges have you attended?

Keepsakes

For me many things trigger memories and I have accumulated a lot of keepsakes to remind me of the happy moments. People say that you never forget the happy memories if you truly cherish them. But sometimes when we are emotionally worn-down and every single thing in the world feels like a burden it is those keepsakes that help me remember.

I have kept old photos, old toys, small notes passed between classes, and gifts given by friends. They remind me of a time where I loved everything about my life, where the burdens of the world did not weigh me down and each and every moment was an opportunity to feel loved and feel joy.

To name one, I have a picture a of view outside the very same window that my sister had taken over 5 years ago. The pictures shows the changes that has occurred to the landscape. Earlier there was probably two sky scrapers at a distance but in my picture those very same sky scrapers look like a tiny building.

Those set of pictures really remind me on how many things have changed over the years. Whether you consider it good or bad that really depends, but change, happens.

Daily writing prompt
What makes you feel nostalgic?

Divine Grace

From my childhood I was fascinated by my name. Unlike most of my friends and my spelling was derived from French and most of the people I met always found it difficult to pronounce my name. Initially, I used to get easily frustrated and angry because it seemed like they were butchering my name. But since then, I have found the meaning of my name and the roots of it’s pronunciation I figured that there is a high chance that people won’t get it.

My name is a derivative of the name Anne which means favor and grace and is found in The Bible. My mother said I was named after Samuel’s Mother who found favor in God’s eyes and had Samuel. The name also represents a person who is strong-willed, funny and has compassion.

I think true to my name my whole life is by the Grace of Jesus. Even when I am broken and alone in my most darkest place He has taken care of me. Even without me asking He has done everything for me. If today I am still alive it is because of His continuing mercy. I hope one day soon I can be worth of the Grace He has bestowed on me.

Bloganuary writing prompt
Write about your first name: its meaning, significance, etymology, etc.

Explorer within Four Walls

If I were to write down the places next to home I still have not visited it would end up being a very long list. I have lived with very protective parents and going alone somewhere was never a possibility. Added to that, I an introvert and quite lazy I would prefer to explore places within the confines of my room.

On a general note, I prefer to visit places where I can just sit and breathe. I love mostly visiting places when the air is dewy and the sun is hot enough to keep me warm but not that it makes me sweat. I appreciate visiting a place when I can hear the sounds of nature over the noise of the busy city. I love those moments when the mind slows down without having the constant thoughts in my head that people are judging me.

Probably one of the reasons why I chose to get lost in the worlds that books bring me. Just a comfortable chair and good light is all I need to enjoy exploration. But maybe someday soon I will choose to venture out to the real world and explore the wonders it holds.

Bloganuary writing prompt
Name an attraction or town close to home that you still haven’t got around to visiting.

Still a Mystery to Me

Mission simply put would be the reason of one’s existence. When I was young I really never paid heed to the more philosophical aspects of life. One would think, the older you get one ends up finally understanding what is their life’s purpose. I guess I still have not got around to it.

I think presently I am just picking up my broken pieces and gluing them back together. Today, my only mission if you would have it is to be happy. Not the kind of fleeting happiness but to have the kind of happiness that lasts and that I can share. I may not have a larger purpose of my life yet but on a generic terms it would probably be not to be negative. Everything else I should be able to achieve without the constant nagging in my mind.

It is never to late I still have time to find my life’s purpose. Hopefully sooner than later.

Bloganuary writing prompt
What is your mission?

Let’s run the Other Way

Not to fall into the typical cliché that most girls don’t like sports. I really wish that I was good at any sports. However, as fate would have it I am on one the most clumsiest person in the world. I always say this to people “Show me a level ground and I will trip on it.” It is not intentional though. I really try but seems like my body just does not want to listen to my brain.

I do enjoy watching sports though tennis, badminton, football, cricket and so on. There is one kind of sport that some people would disagree is a sport, which is Figure Skating. I just love watching how the skaters glide on that ice to the rhythm. It seems effortless but only the people who actually are in that position know the difficulty of it. It is just mesmerizing for me to watch.

As far as me ever playing a sport, it seems like an impossible scenario. But, it never has nor will it ever in future stop me from enjoying the occasional joy I get from watching it on TV.

Bloganuary writing prompt
What are your favorite sports to watch and play?