Choice without Fear

Daily writing prompt
What does freedom mean to you?

To put “Freedom” simply it would be the opportunity to make your own choices without the fear of consequence.

Being free is to being in control. I mean on every second of your life. There shouldn’t be any other human that forces you into making a choice you do not want. I do not want to ever lower my eyes into submission. Every consequences of my life I face I want to to be completely because I decided it. I do not want to ever have that thought – “I should not have agreed to what they said.”

The choices can be anything. It can be how I dress, what I eat, when I choose to do something, how I choose to do it. This list goes on. I have seen a lot of documentaries where humans have experienced the treatment of being mere puppets. They were broken and shattered just for others fun. While I have never been subject to that kind of experience I think everyone experiences some degree of subjugation.

For example, I think most women even today have thoughts that limit them. When I want to wear a particular dress I should have the choice to wear it without having the thought of – “Will someone judge me?”. I should not be worried about how people perceive me. Neither should I be worried about – “Am I allowed to wear this?”.

Most people grow out of it and learn to stand up for themselves. The time that different people take to reach that level is different. I always encouraged and supported my friends to speak up for themselves. I am ashamed to admit it that when it came chance for me to speak up for myself… I failed. I had to take a lot of hits to my self esteem. It took every ounce of will power I had to break free. To this day, I struggle sometimes but I will never stop claiming my freedom.

Hope to all those with me, ahead of me and just starting in their journey to fight for their freedom. Its difficult but you will get there.

The Big Picture

Daily writing prompt
What is your career plan?

Where do you see yourself in 5 years? The standard question that was asked in all my interviews. I absolutely hate it!

I mean I could give a shocking answer like: “Who knows! Maybe in the afterlife!” but I never did give that. I gave the standard I hope to reach a management position. If only reality was that easy.

To be truthful, I have a good career now. I do not know if I will be able to continue in this career given that the world keeps changing around me. But one thing I do want to do is maybe be good enough to teach the next person the job. I want to make things easier for the next person in my shoes and hopefully end up with a career when doing that.

Who has seen tomorrow, I have today and the only thing I have for tomorrow is hope.

I could do More

Daily writing prompt
What do you do to be involved in the community?

I am not a very contributing community member. However, I do like to participate in community events whenever possible.

I was able to be a part of the “Make the city beautiful” event organized by a NGO in which we cleaned and painted neglected public spaces. It was a long day’s work but the result was truly amazing. the once foul smelling place now looked beautiful.

In another instance we got to spend time with kids, we played hide and seek, charades, Pictionary. We also played football or more like we managed. The kids were amazing in all the games. Though I did not speak the same language I loved listening to all their stories. We also helped them with their schoolwork. At the end of the day, nobody wanted to leave but we did end up leaving with hearts filled with happiness.

I hope that in the future I can contribute more to my society and join more community events.

Pilot

Daily writing prompt
What’s a job you would like to do for just one day?

Being a Pilot was a dream that I had when I was a kid.

I used to keep looking at the skies fascinated by how humans fly. I have traveled a lot by plane, but being the person at the controls… now that is something else.

Of course, dreaming is one thing but consciously working towards it is another ball game all together. It takes a lot of dedication, discipline and time to touch the skies.

Over time my dreams have changed but if I could have the skills and the qualification I would love to fly a plane. Just one day would be enough!

The ones who walked the path before me

Daily writing prompt
List the people you admire and look to for advice…

When we are self focused we seldom realize that there are people in this world who have walked the same path. What seems so difficult to us right now someone has already overcome it.

My Parents
It is very irritating when they start with the line “When we were young…”. However, whenever I am stuck in a decision my parents are my first source of advice. I may not always follow their advice but their perspective teaches me a different thought process than I could imagine.
There are times when I choose not to trouble my parents and make my own decisions. My parents keep watching me closely making sure they are there next to me the instant I need them. They never want me to fall, but they want to be there every time I need support to get back up.

My Sister
Some would find it odd why I chose to mention my sister separately. But she deserves the specific mention. She may not be very old to me but she has taken care of me at every stage. If it was up to her she would tie me up with a mattress and cushion so that nothing can harm me. “To harm her you need to cross over my dead body” – seems like a very cliché line in movies. My sister doesn’t need to say it, cause with her every action she shows it. She goes to the extent of saving me from myself. She doesn’t sugar coat her advice. If may not always like it but I know she says things out of love. I may not understand it an the very moment but eventually it all makes sense

My Mentors
At different stages of my life I meet with different people who guide me. Whether it be in school, college or at work. Each and every one of them have taught me something new. The most astonishing part of the whole thing is that they do so with so much humility. They know so much but yet they come down to my level to help me understand things. I admire those who can impart knowledge with such impact.

My Friends
I admire all my friends. I think I become friends with people because I am fascinated by their moral character. Some them are epitome of patience, some are so selfless, some of them are so self driven and motivated. All characteristics I seem to lack in. I turn to them for advice when sometimes I just want another perspective.

Do I even have one?

Daily writing prompt
What gives you direction in life?

I always feel adrift.

I hate questions of the future. It gives me anxiety. I don’t have an answer for it.

People say the more you grow older the more you figure out the answers to our questions. Ironically, the more you understand about reality the more you are clueless about it.

I have so many goals in life. Goals for my health, education, work, family. But on any given day if you ask me where do you see yourself in the future I go blank. I think it goes with the fact that I make great plans but when it comes to actually working on it I procrastinate.

But there has been on goal that has been in my life since I was old enough. To be a better Christian. I believe that if I keep that as a consistent goal in my life everything else will fall into place. Jesus gave me an example on how to be a good human despite the evils in the world. I hope that one day I can say that I am a better person than I was yesterday. If I can commit to the person who loves me the most, it makes sense that committing to the rest is going to be easy.

I hope that I learn to make Him my focus in life. I hope that He becomes my direction. And that every step I take in my life is towards His plan for my life.

Unamused

Daily writing prompt
What are your favorite emojis?

I love the unamused emoji the best.

It depicts me the best. I often avoid conversations and reserve my opinions. In most conversations I was the youngest so even if I had an opinion it really didn’t matter. Probably one of the reasons that I celebrate getting older.

Though I learnt to restrict my words my face however is an open book. I think 90% of the the time my unamused face reveals my opinion on the matter.

It is my most frequently used emoji in my phone. It completely expresses how I feel with out using words.

This and That

Daily writing prompt
What topics do you like to discuss?

I love discussing all types of topics.

It often starts with a news headline. If I see something in the news that I don’t understand I then go and try to search the net for more information.

I often get fascinated by things I don’t know and keep investigating it further. And in the off chance that I find someone who interested in the same topic I end up discussing the topic with them.

I love talking about new advancements in technology, changes in the market, new medical innovations.

On the other hand, on a non-newspaper influenced topic list stationary definitely tops the list. I love talking about new books, TV series, Cooking, Traveling.

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If I were to summarize, the topic really does not matter. What matters is who I am having the conversation with. With my sister and very few close friends I can talk about any topic under the sun.

Most Definitely

Daily writing prompt
Do you need time?

Time for what is the real question.

I need time for a lot of things. I think we as humans always feel that we are running short of time.

I think it mostly comes out of the fact that I procrastinate a lot. I keep putting off things with the idea that I have time. And when the deadline actually comes by, I have not completed the task and then I keeping wishing for more time.

I wish I had more time on vacations. I wish I could travel to all the places I wanted to see rather than remove things from my itinerary. I wish I had more time to appreciate each place that I could visit.

There are other things for which I wish I had more time. I wish I had more time with my grandparents. I wish they were there with me at an age that I could the love in their actions. I wish I had more time to understand them better.

So Yes, if there was time to spare I would surely want it.

Pantry Restock

Daily writing prompt
List your top 5 grocery store items.

As a child shopping for groceries was like an adventure. Today I don’t think I put in much thought to when I go to the grocery store.

I make a list at home before I go and the run around the store trying to gather all the items as soon as possible. The faster I am out of the store the better. All I think is the faster I can get the things back home the sooner I can make food and the sooner I can take rest.

If I were to list out my top frequent grocery store items are:
a. Bread
b. Milk
c. Eggs
d. Oil
e. Tissue

If the list was of my top 5 favorite grocery items are:
a. Wafers
b. Chips
c. Ice Cream
d. Coffee
e. Noodles