Kaleidoscope of Destinies

If you were to ask me yesterday I would say settled, owning a small business, maybe a house and car.

However, today I am philosophical, as I speculated on the prompt the answer that came to my mind was “How the hell would I know?”. All I see when I think 10 years ahead is uncertainty.

I feel that every situation in my life makes me make a choice and that in turn changes the course of my life. On any other day I would stress out and want to fight harder to get back on track. But today, I am choosing to keep making progress it may not be what I initially planned but that is okay.

I may not achieve things by the initial timeline I set for them, but, as long as I keep trying there is a hope that I will get there eventually.

Daily writing prompt
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

Count them Off

Five things that make me happy…

I can find happiness in almost anything if I put my mind to it. Unfortunately, I am tuned to always search out the worst case scenarios.

If the questions was about people the answer is easy, my family and friends make me happy. But when I am on my own there are few things that can bring a smile to my face-

  1. Writing – Always close to my heart. My venting option when I have no shoulders to rely on. My most cherished companion, the keeper of my darkest secrets.
  2. Drawing – Stress buster. No matter whatever the situation when I need to calm myself down all I need is a pencil and paper and the world just slows down.
  3. Singing- Well, music makes most people happy. I don’t really think this needs an explanation.
  4. Reading – The gateway to the worlds of imaginations. The world of books are so fascinating. Anything is possible and I think even today even after I am an adult I still believe in the possibility of magic because of the many books I have read.
  5. My stationery collection – As an avid stationary collector, seeing the different items I have collected over the years definitely makes me happy.
Daily writing prompt
What are 5 everyday things that bring you happiness?

Useful Skills

Growing up, I always try to contemplate the purpose of all the subjects we had in school. I ended up concluding that there was no real purpose.

However, each class did teach me something. Languages taught me how to communicate, Sciences taught me how things work, Maths taught me how to… well… add up things. I could go on about it.

However, leaving the typical subject we learn in the classroom. There was something called skills classes that we were taught. In that class, we were taught how to how to attend/take interviews, give presentations, dress up formally, dinner etiquettes and believe or not make up!

At the time it was taught I found it to be boring, but now that I am actually working, It really makes me realize how small things can make a huge impact!

Daily writing prompt
Describe something you learned in high school.

Letting Go!

I am not a person who can easily forget things. Worse than that, I keep reliving the mostly horrible moments of my life over and over again.

I always thought that I am not good at moving on from things when it comes to others. Carrying the weight of all that pain and hurt was just beyond anything I have ever known. I had to break down completely after which I realized that letting go was the only option I had to move on.

And my word! The first time I just let myself be was just life altering! I still have a problem with letting go. But I have learnt to let go of little things. There are always going to be something that I cannot control and that is okay!

Besides having absolute control over your destiny is overrated! 🙂

Daily writing prompt
Describe one positive change you have made in your life.

Make the World a Better Place

Everybody at some point think of something that they would like to about their community. I don’t like that fact that some of us get to live a comfortable life while others struggle.

If I knew how to, I would like to make emergency medicine free for those who cannot afford it. Maybe, make schools that have free education with lodging for kids. Maybe make counselling mandatory for kids so that they get help even when they think they do not need help.

Maybe make it required to have green zone in every house so we have have our very own trees. Maybe a community can be responsible for a particular public space so that it is maintained well.

Maybe safe homes for women or men who need a little extra help to stand back on their feet.

I wish I could say that addictive substance needs to be completed irradicated but I am aware that we still need it for people who have medical issues that cannot be handled any other way.

This maybe something naive, but a daycare with grandpas and grandmas as the monitors for the kids. Of course there needs to be trained staff and young people to help with the more hard tasks. But, I think having something like this would give the kids the love from elders and give the elders the joy of seeing kids. Ah well! Maybe too far fetched.

Daily writing prompt
How would you improve your community?

Adapt or Accept

I think the time before COVID everyone was just running around. We all were just focused on the next race without ever thinking about the end goal. COVID slowed us down a little. At one point of time everything was just too overwhelming.

I think for that one part it worked to my favor. I liked staying indoors turned into somewhat like a vampire. I enjoyed the smaller crowds, the fact that you could stay at home in the comfort of your PJs and spend time just talking with family and friends.

I am not sure if I have adapted that well, I think I mostly just accepted the change out of the uncertainty that it posed. I think with everything there is always a good and a bad. But I sincerely hope that no one ever has to face such a fear in life again.

Daily writing prompt
How have you adapted to the changes brought on by the Covid-19 pandemic?

Not so much of a Ritual

My first hour of the day depends on when I slept the night before.

I am a night person. I generally sit long hours in the night to get things done and end up waking late. The constant in my mornings would be brushing teeth, shower and maybe going through all my notifications on my phone. I know not a very healthy habit but what can I say?

I would like to include some healthy habits like maybe morning prayers or exercise or meditation or drinking water… I mean something that I could be proud about.. But it is never to late. I am gonna keep trying to make better habits and maybe someday soon I will get it write.

Daily writing prompt
What are your morning rituals? What does the first hour of your day look like?

Everything Together

In my opinion everything about a person makes them unique. I mean you could have two people be good at the same thing but very rarely are they good at all the same things.

Even if one is an identical twin the way they behave, the things they like, the choices they make are so different. That’s why every life is precious cause once you are gone to get another one like you is impossible. You may think you are ordinary or not special (trust me I know the feeling) but there is something special about you.

It may take you sometime and in some cases you may never see it but trust me someone has seen it. You are the perfect combination of things to be the unique person you are!

Daily writing prompt
Which aspects do you think makes a person unique?

Almost Anything

I laugh for the most weirdest situations. Even worse than that, I tend to recall the funny situation and laugh again.

I laugh at myself when I jumble words as I speak or when I confidently address someone with another persons name or even better when I make the most obvious mistake.

I laugh when I see cute baby videos, when they try to attempt something for the first time and fail at it. I laugh even at dog videos or any other baby animals especially the ones with the voice overs.

What I don’t laugh for is Stand up comedy. I think my mind cannot bridge the gap between the actual words and the implied joke and when it actual does the train has left the station.

Considering that we all have a lot in life to cry and grieve over I take every chance I can to smile. I just life in that moment of laughter with a hope that I will have more of those in the days to come.

Daily writing prompt
What makes you laugh?

Blank Memory

I wish I had some aspirations to become something at that age. The earliest I remember is probably 11 or 12 but even then I doubt that I really had a passion for any of the things I mentioned.

I doubt I even understood we had to be something when we grow up. I may have wanted to be a fairy or witch or basically any creature that could do magic. I have very vague memories of my childhood which is very much open to interpretations. It could be cause I never understood the importance of those moments, or could be cause I wanted to forget some memories which were painful or it could be as what I would say now that my “ROM” part of the brain is very limited.

I think at that age all I wanted was to be happy, play with my sister all day and hug my parents and sleep at night. I never had a thought of tomorrow and guess that was the best phase of my life.

Daily writing prompt
When you were five, what did you want to be when you grew up?