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Day 11: Old Memories and New Perspectives

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I did not realize how much of me I had lost! Everyday its like my fogged memories are clearing. I am starting to smile more. I never knew that I had started giving up on pieces of me. I started making my world smaller. I think I hoped the smaller my world the lesser I would hurt. It is like I am claiming myself back. Little my little.

On a lighter note, I did listen to a couple of shorts audio stories. It was like a blast from the past. It had been years since I read a book or even heard an audio book. Also, lets be real, I had a spout of impulse purchase today. I need to stop it. I need to start using the stuff I buy. I am going to start by restricting myself to an amount for the month. Hopefully, over time i can reduce the budget until finally I buy stuff only when I actually need it.

All in all cheers to a good day!

None at All

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What are your favorite physical activities or exercises?
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I could easily list physical activities like hiking or skipping, but the truth is that I only do them when I am forced into it, not because I genuinely enjoy them.

I do like walking in silence with my headphones on. However, more than the walking I enjoy the peace and calm of the walk. No chatter of people, no chatter in my brain just being one with nature. I guess that walking is a sort of meditation for me rather than exercise.

Sports or exercise have never appealed to me. I am, at heart, a house mouse. All my hobbies can be done within the confines of my four walls. I am aware of the importance of exercise for my health, so I make the effort— out of necessity.

Maybe someday soon I will adopt a hobby that drag me to the outside. Things can change you never know.

Day 8: Good Day

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Today was a good day!

It was not because I was not it pain or that everything in my life is perfect. But today was good.

I spent the whole day with my family. We sat together all morning and just talked. Random things. Anything below the sun. We had food together and just chilled.

In the afternoon, we went for a movie. We watched an animated movie and guess what my parents actually sat through the whole movie. I was shocked. Never expected my parents to sit through an animation movie. Well I guess, when you become grand parents you will do everything for your grand kids.

I started watching the movie but somewhere in between I drifted to sleep. The reclining seat, the cool theater and the warm blanket was the conducive environment for the sandman to visit.

I did struggle to walk the distance and climb the stairs but at the end all I remember was the happy moments of the day.

Thank you God for today!

Almost Anything

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What’s your favorite cartoon?
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I don’t know why, but the older I get, the more I enjoy watching cartoons.

I like almost any type of cartoon, as long as there aren’t any disgusting bugs that make me want to puke. Other than that, any cartoon that can distract me from the everyday mess I call life is something I truly appreciate and love.

My forever favorite is Tom and Jerry. I adore everything about it—the hilarious dynamic between the cat and the mouse, the clever comedy, and the timeless charm. As a child, I loved it mainly for the humor. But as an adult, I’ve come to appreciate the unlikely friendship it portrays. Despite their differences, the constant fights, and society’s expectation of enmity between a cat and a mouse, Tom and Jerry remain friends. That bond always brings a smile to my face, and I absolutely love it.

And yes, it’s definitely time for a Tom and Jerry binge-watching day!

Day 7: The Turning point

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Today was probably the turning point in my life—the one I had been waiting for. I have nothing holding me back anymore. Now, if I don’t take steps in the right direction, I will have only myself to blame.

Step by step, I am going to push myself to look at the bright side. Even on days when it feels incredibly hard, I will try. I am determined to create a purpose in my life—something worth living for.

To begin, I want to make a bucket list. I used to wonder what the point of it was. I kept thinking that I didn’t deserve happiness, that I had no right to be happy because I wasn’t perfect.

But you know what? It doesn’t matter. Happiness isn’t about whether you deserve it or not. Happiness is found in those moments that help us overcome the sad ones. I am going to embrace every happy moment life offers me, and I will be grateful for each one.

Cheers to a day of clarity!

Breaking Free

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What positive events have taken place in your life over the past year?
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You read about it. People in toxic relationships. I read about it too. People so lost.. so alone. All the while having thoughts in your head – “It’s your fault” , “Be Better”, “You have done something wrong”, “You should have tried harder”.

While the toxic relationship is hard enough to bear the torture cage that the mind makes is even worse.

I broke free. I thought I did. Never knew that my mind would be the one that keeps me locked in. It took me a year. A year of self hate. A year of blaming myself. A year of locking myself away. A year of hiding from my family. A year of not letting myself be happy.

This year, I finally stopped punishing myself. I gave it my best. Somethings are just not worth holding on to. Not everything that happens in life is for good. Sometimes you need to break away to start living again. And I finally did.

This is year I finally broke free!

Day 6: Back on my Feet

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After days of excruciating pain I am back on my feet.

I want to get better so bad. I hate being sick. I hate the pain. I hate limping and having to sit every 5 minutes. I feel like a burden.

I know the disease will be something that I need to live with for the rest of my life. But, I want to have some semblance of normalcy. I want to be able to walk without support. I want to be able to climb up stairs. I want to not see the pain and concerns in my family’s eyes as I struggle to make it across the room.

I know I have a lot of damage and that it is going to be a slow recovery process. Just that some days the pain feels a little more worse. It just feels like there is no end to the pain. I do not want to fall into a gloom thought process. But somedays keeping the hope is a little bit difficult.

Today was that difficult day but somehow I got through. I got through it because I was with my family. My sister came over with the kids and we spent the whole afternoon putting up the Christmas decorations. The loud screaming and lame jokes kept my mind in it’s happy space.

Today was a difficult day but somehow it ended with me having a good memory to hold on to.

Day 5: Feeling Bored

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It’s just been the fifth day of me, trying to maintain a consistent habit of writing a blog. I am already feeling like just giving up.

More than writing a blog consistently, I wanted to keep this blog as a way to keep myself accountable to the changes that I want to make in my life. I keep stalling on things such as waking up early and trying to exercise or even meditate for that matter.

The worst part of it all is that I still have not started reading my bible every day. I really want to be closer to God before I close my eyes not for the fear of hell or death. I just feel guilty that He was the one person that showed me consistent love, and I haven’t even begun to start loving him back.

Starting tomorrow I am going to make that conscious effort to read the bible and prayer before I start my day. Hopefully one day it becomes a necessity rather than a forced habit.

Nature’s Wild Side

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Do you ever see wild animals?
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In everyday life, spotting a wild creature isn’t common. However, there have been moments when I’ve crossed paths with them unexpectedly.

On rare occasions, I’ve seen small foxes or coyotes. Truthfully, I can’t always tell them apart. When I see one, my instinct is to close my eyes and run the other way. It’s not rational, but fear doesn’t always listen to reason. Snakes are another story. I’ve come across a few, and the experience was terrifying. They are just creepy.

I remind myself that every creature was created by God. Animals usually don’t harm humans unless they feel endangered. Yet I think – what if I’m not a danger, but instead, dinner? That possibility keeps my fear alive.

Despite these fears, I love going on safari trips. There’s something blissful about watching animals from a safe distance, seeing them in their natural habitat. You can’t help but wonder what intricate details God has put into making this world.

Silly Little Things

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Share five things you’re good at.
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Five things I am good at…

a. Zoning Out – Maybe not a good behavior. But sometimes, when there is endless nonsense being spewed at you it is a good skill to have. Its not about running away from the world rather deciding when to focus and when to let go.

b. Laughing at myself – While this took sometime to learn, I have learnt to laugh at my mistakes. I try my best not to let my old mistakes to haunt me.

c. Writing – I may not be expert level but for a beginner I am not half bad. It is something that brings out the best in me and I love it.

d. Singing – In my family, being part of a choir is practically a rite of passage. Singing comes naturally to me, even though I’m not the best, I can hold a tune.

e. Cooking – Lets be clear, I can’t cook food that will end up in a food magazine. It ain’t going to be pretty but I try my best to make it tasty. I love making food for my family.